40 million miles away

I look down at my hands and feet
I've felt this way but don't understand
I began to lose my sight of the street
And I saw-felt for a flash my homeland

Somewhere 40 million miles away
I float on this breath I can't breath in
I missed the inhale but drank up the day
This is a battle of knowledge I can't win
But more than 40 million miles away
is the desert of more than forty years ago
And someday I'll pass through the gates
despite how little I know

Im out of mind but I'm in his heart
I won't worry about my breathing
I know so little but I feel this is the start
Of my reassured new beginning

Peace in the Unpieceable

Slowing down
for just a moment
lets hold it
lets unfold it
take the stillness from the sky
and let it sink into our soul through our eyes

Fall on my soul like life water
Let me find stability even as I falter
Cause this world wont slow down for me
and its only when I look past the business that I see
there is peace even in the darkest place
if I find the light beam that falls from your face

Common ground
is hard to find
they run and hide
no peace inside
can we find peace in this restlessness
can we find joy in this hopelessness

Fall on my soul like life water
Let me find stability even as I falter
Cause this world wont slow down for me
and its only when I look past the business that I see
there is peace even in the darkest place
if I find the light beam that falls from your face

Even in these dingy halls
even in the marred scarred walls
Even in these places there is life
Even in these broken hearts
Even when the dark cracks the start
of the new way and new sound
there is life
in your light
were alright

Cover My Mouth

Why are the nations falling
Why is youth failing
Why are they calling
Why are we nailing
the sins of our souls to the blaze of a fire,
and promise not to look because we dont want to see.
Whatever happened to the longing desire
to see the captives set free.

We cover our mouths
We wont make a sound
though people around
bleed and die out
and fall to the ground
unheard and unsound
because we cover our mouths

If we have the truth why dont we speak
What do we have to lose
theres nothing to keep
If nothing this proves
that we are weak
and I need someone
to undo the loser in me

You Say You Want To Live In a Modern World?

We've got every kind of button and gadget,
but boy have I had it,
up to here
We've got every kind of flashing light,
No one sees tonight
no one hears.
And no one cares,
no no one seems to care

You say you want to live in a modern world,
well welcome to our facade parade
Did you want to live lonely, join the band
did you want to live hard without a stand
You say you want to live in a modern world
Did you want to live only in a screen, live like this if you can
but the modern makes me want to scream

Do you want to live in a world of crumbling concrete
where no one looks in each others eyes as they walk the street
theres mistrust on every side,
we've run to the dark and abandoned the Light
I'd give anything to get rid of the modern life.

FreakOut

I realize Im in the spotlight
Is this the first time
Am I waking up
Or breaking up
Its getting hard to tell
Am I coming out of my shell
Or am I leaving peace and security
for doubt
Is it a new dawn of revelation or a
FreakOut
A FreakOut!

Cause my pulse is pounding in my ears
I can't count up my fears
they're creeping out
Hear my shout
I feel like I'm of control
whatever made me feel whole
My breathless heartbeat
Is wandering the street
Wont you come back to me
Its not supposed to be like this now
Is this my FreakOut!

Whatever made me feel whole
What is this hole in my soul
Why is my head spinning out of control
The songs wont come
I am undone

Have I forgotten
That I'm not the one who holds gravity down
I'm not the one who put breath in my mouth
Do I have any good reason to despair like this now
Do I have any good reason to FreakOut?

Cause my pulse is pounding in my ears
I can't count up my fears
they're creeping out
Hear my shout
I feel like I'm out of control
whatever made me feel whole
My breathless heartbeat
Is wandering the street
Wont you come back to me
Its not supposed to be like this now
Is this my FreakOut!
This is my FreakOut!
Its been my FreakOut!
But its Over now...

A Rainy Day

Air becomes a cold whisper that creeps up into the fabric of your clothes and numbs your fingers. Wind comes like a sequel to the cold undertone, stirring up Air for what is to come.

Dried up leaves skip and swirl across the ground and into Air, then dive back down and dissolve into crinkly noises. Clouds come in like a patchwork quilt across the sky, until it is a single color of gray-blue-white with a soft cold gloss.

Greens and browns become brighter and darker, their rich warmth overcoming the cold. A few icy drops fall from the sky and splash into the cracks of gray pavement. More come down on earth, falling like hundreds of liquid comets. They splash onto the ground and dance on everything they touch, slipping and soaking into clothes, skin and eyelashes.

Harder and harder they pound, trying to break through to the warm center of earth. Grass sparkles like a field of diamonds on emerald turf. Like a sigh the sky draws its breath and mist unravels from the liquid sky. Earth is soaked to the bones. Air is clear cold and fresh.

Attidude of Worship

Let this freeway sing your praises tonight
Let the red lights remind me of your might
Let the hum and sigh of the road be a song unto your ears
Let your hands reach down to wipe away my tears
and all my fears
and all the years
I will let go  and you will purge it
Its my attitude of worship

Let the lights fade from my head
Let me rest on all you've said
Let my feet be set on your solid rock
Let my heart not fear what I havent got
Let the flashing lights and shouts be only unto you
Let me be amazed through what humility can do
Let your hands reach down to wipe away my tears
and all my fears
and all the years
I will let go and you will purge it
Its my attidude of worship

Let it all be only for you
All that I ever say and do
Let this stage be an alter
Let not my faint heart falter
May all the sounds of my life bless those who've heard it
An attitude of worship
Its the attidude of worship
Keep the attiitude of worship
May I have the attidude of worship

Complete

I know that you wont give me more than I can take
You know just how much before I break
I trust the promise, you wont let go,
and you'll make me white as snow

What you started you will complete
You've been making something out of me
Not quite sure what it is yet,
but Im holding out to see what comes next
I'm holding onto your promise
you said you wont let go
You've been changing this novice
and you'll completely make me whole

You know how very human I am
You just how much and how long I can stand
You were there when I took my first step
And you'll be with me when I breath my last breath
I trust the promise you wont let go
and you'll make me white as snow

I Can't Write This Away

Watching life in the mirror,
my fingers unable to reach through the glass
All that I held so dear
Is slipping through the strainer from future to past
and I'm a writer so I'll write my thoughts
and try to escape the scrape I just got
but this thought scares me

cause I cant write this away
this one stays,
like a stain on my face
I can't wear it out
and it wears me down
does time ever run out of time
to push me past the line
of insanity how it laughs at me

And no matter how hard I try to pen it down
my thoughts float to the ground
like a vapor
theres no paper
to hold these thoughts
I cant write this away

The Horizan is Black

Lucy's thoughts as the Dawn Treader sails through to the Dark Island

Madness is all around me,
and chaos tries to quench my wonder,
but your love is all around me,
and I wont go under.

Invisible arrows almost pierce my mind,
my body has long been weary,
but you hold me inside,
your arms,
your hands,
are stronger,
than my own,
Even in this darkness, Im not alone.

You are where you are,
even when the heavens are thrown down,
When the battles and storms rage
and my spirit reaches dark ground,
you are holding me together,
and I will not fall apart,
and you will not leave me, never
You formed and love and hold my heart

Invisible dark doubt almost pierces my mind,
my mind has long been weary,
but you hold me inside,
your arms,
your hands,
are stronger,
than my own,
Even in this darkness, Im not alone.

Even in the choking darkness that surrounds me,
I will not let go of the promise,
you said you would always be with me,
and I know this, oh I know this,
you keep your word and your arms
your hands,
are stronger than my own constitution,
even in darkness, I'm never alone

Clean Cut Side

Running your finger on a jagged edge
remembering all the times you pledged
your heart away
is there a better way
well theres a side
where theres true life
But I gotta tell you
its not easy
I gotta prepare you
From the clean cut hear me


On the clean cut side there is blood
you have to decide do you want lies or love
on the clean cut side there is blood
you have to decide is this world enough

Its not easy waring like this
this isn't the first time we've felt the enemies fist
and it wont be the last time
until its the last time
and we'll hear that glorious voice
saying you made the right choice
and the war is over
come up here
come over

Fading In

Tuning into your frequency,
I need your voice to come in clear,
Its the only thing that keeps me ready,
Its the only thing that can't disapear.

So why do I turn it off,
try to shut it down,
and waste my time running around
like a foolish person,
well I guess its cause I am one.
I need you in spite of
despite of my efforts to drown you out,
please come back around,
I need you again,
come back in,
I hear you fading in.

I know I can be stubborn and full of myself,
I dont know what Im doing, I could use some help.
When I think I've got a clear signal it starts breaking up,
Im breaking up,
from the inside out,
Im falling down,
please dont fade out,
come fading in,
I need your sound,
Im breaking, spinning out

Im Alone

Sitting in the sun,
listenin to the wind.
Not much has begun,
and Im Alone Again.

I've got a story for you
its kinda sad but its the truth
Its my joyful story about who
I spend most of my time with these days,
Cause I find more time is slipping away,

And Im alone,
again,
with my very best friend,
yeah Im alone, again
And I dont mind theres no hand to hold,
its best if you leave life with unfolded hands
You've got nothing left, thats when you get hope,
and Im alone
again.

The cold breeze doesnt bother me,
I'm sitting with the song birds outside,
It doesnt matter that Im cold and alone
it really isnt the first time
I am happier this way,
and Im ok,
cause human happiness isnt worth much anyway

To tell you the truth his scars are my company
your cars and money dont make you fancy free
and you envy me
cause theres something you see
that you dont got inside yourself
dont turn over in your grave, just turn over yourself

Criminal Prints

I am my own tragedy,
I am my bitter calamity,
I am a living soul,
A dying body on parole,
Yeah a dying body on parole.

I'm the criminal,
I've got blood on my house and hands,
I've given up the holy vigil,
assembled a mansion of shifting sand,
pretty to behold with the eye,
until you went and looked inside,
and the inside was just the shack of a criminal,
with dirty fingerprints everywhere.

How can you escape the ghost of yourself,
A living soul in a dying shell.
What do you do when you havent been doing what you're supposed to?
Who can erase the fingerprints,
who can tear down the wall and split apart,
the living and the dead in your heart.
Who can keep us alive,
where is the breath of life,
can he cure the predictable,
and wash the hands of a criminal

Run to the River

Exhausted and breaking,
My very bones aching,
I need some relief from this life
I open my eyes,
where the streams have run dry
There is a river shining like night skies.

And though my body is weary
and my eyes are bloodshot red
I lift myself from the dirt,
and wipe away the tears I've shed

And I run to the river,
I run to its arms,
the blood stains in my garments run
into the blue vein and come undone,
I run to the river,
My aching body floats
like a weightless breath of air
You quench my thirst, and I know youre there
The last heat mirages shiver,
when I run to the river

Its my last day I know
I feel it in my bones,
I am tired and alone,
Oh Lord have you left your throne
The wells are all dried up,
I've been hung out and cried up,
but I crawl over the last hill
and see it still,

Pick up my dirty feet,
My hands are cracked and dry,
I've been running through hot streets,
Everyone says I'm gonna die,
I running on my last breath,
Im gonna take my last step,
Run to the river,
you are my river,
Soak through my skin,
Come thick and thin,
Wash away my sin,
Im a sinner,
So I'll run to the river

I'm Still Fighting

I groan inside
My soul is weary
Theres no life
Within this city
It feels like
I'm breathing to a brick wall
They cant hear a thing at all

And I wonder,
is this fight for me
Is this life really worth living
But you fight for me,
so I'll fight for them
Back to the wars again
I won't give up till you give the cry
And all will see and hear why
you are God
But right now I'm still fighting

And I war with myself
and my own blind ambition
I dont listen well
Feels like another numb rendition
But I'm still fighting
I'm still crying
They're still dying,
thats why I'm fighting

Embered Paper

My eyes are burning out
like paper that won't burn up
And I am staring down,
All that you are made of.

You cant do this on your own
Cant fight your battles alone
Cause this world will drive you cold
And chill you to the bone

I'll be the eyes burning bright
Like a piece of embered paper in the night
Clear the smoke screen
whats inside
All you are and could be
will divide
Catch the fire youre just scrap paper in the wind,
But you could be burning out so hold on tight
Like a piece of embered paper in the night.

Embered paper
edges red
You remember yourself
when you are his again
Embered paper
burning bright
can't fight for yourself
give up your life
Embered paper
Embered paper
scraps held by the savior
Burn out like embered paper

Colors of Confusion

A disrupted symphony
The skip of a heartbeat
Confusion has made its home in me

This is my attempt to see
why I always crash to pieces
on the freeway of cold and empty

I wanna be there
my feet are firmly planted here
all that I think I want disappears
why can't I move, move past delusions
my instruments of warped illusions
I wear the colors of confusion

Nothing makes sense to me at all
where is the sense in emptiness and free for all
why must I wear these colors

Is the belief, the truth, the one, the truly discovered
The hope, the out, the new life uncovered,
The fight to fight, the love unlike any other,
Will you come and make me yours
give me your colors