Friday, January 22, 2010

Permenant Undo

I fell down again
feels like the ground is my closest friend
I don't mean to complain
but self you are the biggest pain

What I wouldn't give to take it all back
then I could take what broke your back back

What I wouldn't give to erase
all my stupid and foolish mistakes
I feel like my time is up
someone should be saying hey that's enough
What I wouldn't give to give this up to you
I want permanent, permanent undo

Wash away
my stain
drown me with
your rain
cause I keep
getting in my way
your love is true
my permanent permanent undo

Perfect

Here I am in such a painful state
in myself are all the things I hate
I cannot bear to look into your face
it hurts like a wound that you love me anyway

Cause I want to be beautiful for you
but I fail
I fail so miserably
and I want to be used by you
but I'm frail
I'm frail and miserably
wanting nothing more than to be perfect

Loving you hurts worse than anything
but I'd rather die loving you
than waste away with no love song to sing
Loving you heals more than anything
and I'd rather die crying blue
than not ever knowing your beauty

One day when I am free from myself
I will run to your arms whole and well
Father let my forget myself
because the loving wounds are a life giving well

Cause I want to be beautiful for you
but I fail
I fail so miserably
and I want to be used by you
but I'm frail
I'm frail and miserably
wanting nothing more than you so perfect
you were perfect
you are perfect

Thursday, January 14, 2010

These Lonely Shores

Standing on the lonely shores
overlooking the roaming sea
Uncanny how the storms
of the ocean find a home in me
And I can't help wondering
if I'm losing it all
but then I wonder is that so bad
is that so bad after all

I just wanna learn my lessons
I just wanna leave the right impressions
upon this sand
wont let this land get me down
cause its not home even now
And I won't let it wear me out

Behind me the world screams
But I've turned my soul away
Lies rip at the seams
But the truth is here to stay
And I can't help wondering
as I stand facing the sea
if I'm losing it all
but then I wonder is that so bad
is that so bad after all

I just wanna learn my lessons
I just wanna live in new redemption
upon these sands
won't let this land get me down
never was a part of it anyhow
and by these shores to you alone I bow

Rise And Fall

A heartbeat rises
a breath falls
a hope surmises
death isn't the end of all

A tear wells
and turns down
Music swells
and here comes the sound

Its the rise and fall of everything surrounding me
inside of me the dying tree the strength found not in myself to revive
not just surive
the knowledge I am human
the hope that youre improving and moving me
closer ever closer
to your heartbeat

We're not steady
we're steady oh
we're not ready
our ground in unsound
oh we're ever changing
while you're paging
our story
penning down
the rising glory

Its the rise and fall of everything surrounding me
inside of me the dying tree the strength found not in myself to revive
not just surive
the knowledge I am human
the hope that youre improving and moving me
closer ever closer
to your heartbeat

We change like the seasons
but your lungs are breathin'
life into our lungs
that's how songs are sung
We change like the seasons
have no excuses or reasons
from life unto death
but you have not finished yet

Monday, January 11, 2010

This is Where You Are

Here you are

so far from the stars

that you stare up into

I see your scars

and how you've fallen apart

you know you can't see this through

kinda wonder what you got yourself into

but child this is life

and here's the wonder

I'll never let you slip asunder


Dear one don’t give up

You are loved and that’s enough

your burning low

Forgot the morning star

But I don’t care

Cause this is where you are

I'll never leave you because you are mine

and I cannot deny who I am

how can I make you understand

that I'm for you


Dear one since the day you arrived

I have never left your side

the days you fell and bled

I was right there holding your head

I know that it can be hard to believe

among many who live to deceive

but I never tell anything but truth

let my broken heart be your proof

Friday, January 8, 2010

Hold On

Here we are
feels like aim
is for the stars
and for the grave
old and young
all born into one
we fill our lungs
with the oceans you've sung
we drown our human side
in your holy tide

We don't understand
your marvelous plan
but we comprehend our need
so we take a stand
and hold your scarred up hand
marred up by our brutal creed

Help us now to stand up straight
we weave in and out of the Way
we long for the Truth and the day
when you'll say
its all done
its finished
kids we've won
evil's diminished

For now we wait
we must be patient
the day will come
but we can state
that the whole worlds fate
will be overcome
we will overcome

Hand Over The Minute Hand of Your Clock

The sky is yawning
its waking up
a cup of tea would be nice but I've got stuff
stuff to do,
no time for you

I'm really sorry but the bed needs to be made
the kids have gotta be fed
what do you know this shirt has a stain
its seems one day is never enough
time, time, time and I've got stuff
to do
no time for you

Theres just no room in my scheduale
for the King of kings
I'm too busy with the perpetual
state of things and things
just get in my way
and eat up the time
away
I've got stuff to do
and theres just no time for you

Oh Father
is this what you see inside my soul
I'm repenting
and turning from it all
I'll say I'm sorry and then I'll take some time away
in my day
when I'm all by myself
so busy in my own mind
I'll just look in the window of my heart and gaze into your skies
into your eyes
and there I'll laugh and there I'll cry and give you
time
before my day is through
theres gotta be time for you

Monday, January 4, 2010

Au Revoir Babylon (2)

I tried to close my eyes
but the red shined through my lids
The Darkness burned bright
and I begged the Light to rid
of this feeling I couldn't shake
it hung on the bottom of my lungs
like an earthquake

Finally I pulled out the weapon
that had inflicted the wound
it was my own prejudice
and the Light made all things new

au revoir Babylon
I've traveled with you too long
the day is almost gone
and so is my life song
so with every last ounce of me
no matter how much it hurts to sing
I will go on
so long
Babylon

I never knew how deep this would take me
I didn't know how healing could break me
I had no idea how magnificent the love
I'd been living on shallow surfaces like a water bug
But no more

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Epicenter

in the interim of our life
inside the interminable divine
where is the point in time
when humanity will realize
that what we need is the Light
to burn the scales off our eyes

I think we've fallen far enough
its time to return to the house of love
its time we let our hearts remember Above

Lets remember
the epicenter
the reason we breath
bite at the teeth
get a shock
now unlock
the mystery
that was nailed into loving hands and feet
The whole worlds waiting with burning lungs
the anticipation rises as this song is sung
its rising through the earth that remembers something better
drop what you got get a shock
cause he's the Epicenter

Every eye will one day see
that at his scarred up side is the only place to be
one day everyone will bow down at his feet
and all his soldiers will taste a victory so sweet
let the Target Mark make his home in your heart

Lets remember
the epicenter
the reason we breath
bite at the teeth
get a shock
now unlock
the mystery
that was nailed into loving hands and feet
The whole worlds waiting with burning lungs
the anticipation rises as this song is sung
its rising through the earth that remembers something better
drop what you got get a shock
cause he's the Epicenter

Unjaded

Jaded
world-weary, tired, worn out, bored,
cynical, lackluster and mistrusting
just another overused word in the modern vocabulary
We fell in love with a fiction family
only to find it wasn't true with broke boned hearts we sing

I've become so very numb,
so cold in spirit went undone.
No fire left in my eyes to see
there's something amiss in me.
one, two, three
my eyes see shifting
shadows and I move away

Won't you take my hand
and we'll hold our breath
we'll be moving forward
stepping off the depth of death to
become unjaded
free, less faded
spirit filled and closer to
the Maker of all things new

Its easy to get fed-up
when they shove it down
Its easy to get worn with
the way they scream it out
they use our souls
as surplus
leave dark holes
that hurt us
the ache of the human plight
could be ended this time
if we give ourselves for whom they were created
hold our breath, count to three, soften and become unjaded

Lets trust Him this time
Lets keep it in line
the pain will bring out the fine
soften our spirits and make them Thine

Friday, January 1, 2010

Maybe I'll Not be New Without You

One more square
another number
Take the dare
give it to another
I couldn't care less about the new year
all I want to do is cry the new tear

Cause this year doesn't feel new
I have no feeling anymore
I can't even tell you
I can't wrap numb words around the floor
of the way I feel
it has no words
it disappears
I don't care about the new day
I just want you to make my way new
I just hope you're making something new

Its not about making fly by resolutions
giving rise to deaths that have no solutions
Its about the steady heartbeat of every moment
its about the motion of my every breath

Cause this year doesn't feel new
I have no feeling anymore
I can't even tell you
I can't wrap numb words around the floor
of the way I feel
it has no words
it disappears
I don't care about the new day
I just want you to make my way new
I just hope you're making something new

I wanna walk side by side with you
I wanna talk tide by tide with you
I don't care about the month date or year
I all I know is that I want you near

It doesn't have to be new
just filled with You

Cause this year doesn't feel new
I have no feeling anymore
I can't even tell you
I can't wrap numb words around the floor
of the way I feel
it has no words
it disappears
I don't care about the new day
I just want you to make my way new
I just hope you're making something new