Apathetic Apologetic

Just because the key lies on the table
doesn't mean that your able
to unlock the mystery
Just because the key lies on the table
doesn't mean you are capable
of understanding the unseen

A little apathy
has gotten beneath your skin
you've crawled inside the bars
and caged yourself in,
inside its arms
the world holds charms
swallow them whole and wake up to scars

And its scaring me
what have you got yourself into
don't say to me
that that's just what you do
cause you know now
you're not really living at all
locked up in the downside of the fall

Just because you knew once how to breath
doesn't mean it comes with ease
at least not anymore
Just because you once could see
doesn't mean you kept trying
to open up the door


A little apathy
has gotten beneath your skin
you've crawled inside the bars
and caged yourself in,
inside its arms
the world holds charms
swallow them whole and wake up to scars

And its scaring me
what have you got yourself into
don't say to me
that that's just what you do
cause you know now
you're not really living at all
locked up in the downside of the fall

Forever Always

Its time I told you what was on my mind
to tell you what I fight through inside
how I wish I could rewind and take you through those nights
and you would wipe the tears from my eyes

Its time I told you how my spirit fell
to the bottom of that well
so many stories I could tell
so many secrets I could sell

To you I turn it over right now
cause you'll mend it somehow
turn my world upside down
to make it better
forever always we'll be together
Your love and mercy is light
The world can't hold me down alright
cause I left the world forever always to make a right

Forever always you will never leave me
even when my eyes are blind and can't see
your loving arms will be holding me
despite myself and in spite of me
you carried my cost and delight in me

All I can do is weep
and ask to serve, bowing at your feet
I'll never deserve your love so sweet
but I give you all I have, I give you all of me

To you I turn it over right now
cause you'll mend it somehow
turn my world upside down
to make it better
forever always we'll be together
Your love and mercy is light
The world can't hold me down alright
cause I left the world forever always to make a right

How Many Diamonds

I've been thinking about motives
why we do what we do and to hold it
When we stand before that throne
when we truly see the good and bad alone

Li da di Li da di di oh

I don't believe he'll be judging me
but how will I feel as he's loving me
if I did not do what I was supposed to
What will become of me, and what had ever come from me
When he burns away all the hay and stubble
when he removes all the rubble and pulls me out of the wreck
will I only see a burning mess
how many diamonds for his glory
without a thought of my own story
Li da di Li da di di oh oh
Li da di Li oh oh

I do not want to be ashamed
when he calls forth my name
I want to be complete in humility
and then forget and not be proud of me
its such a hard thing to forget the face in the mirror
no matter what you do it won't disappear

Wither I Go

Maybe I look misty eyed
but its not from any tears that I've cried
I just can't wait
my spirit shakes

I diligently watch the skies
not wanting to miss the sight of your eyes
when you come back for me
I'm willing and waiting

When I see the sunsets
and the birds fly away
I know that my heart's set
for you on that day
and wither I go I care not as long as I'm with you
When I see the clouds roll
and thunder rush on high
I sigh within myself
it could be tonight
and wither I go I care not because I'll be with you

I want to look into your eyes
for a thousand years
I want to see the hands
that swept away my fears
I want to dance in the arms of my mighty God
I want to weep at the feet of my Father

And though my heart will tremble with sighs
I'll stand face to face with the Light giving Life
It could be today it could be tonight
And if you come to take me when my life is to depart
I'll close my eyes, and care not, I'll fly straight to your heart


When I see the sunsets
and the birds fly away
I know that my heart's set
for you on that day
and wither I go I care not as long as I'm with you
When I see the clouds roll
and thunder rush on high
I sigh within myself
it could be tonight
and wither I go I care not because I'll be with you

Come Home

Come to me all who are weary
weary of this world
Come to me all who are teary
eyed
Come to me all who are dreary
dingy colors unfurled
Come to me all who are nearly
mine

Come home children
come home
this world has nothing new
it shines up its throne of old old chrome
its time for a brand new thing
cast off the old
on with the new
the thing you've been told
but knew that was true
You've ignored me long enough
now I'm waiting here for you to come

Come to me sinners and saints
you are all the same,
yet I know each of your eyes, and your name
Dear one you are loved
yes you, and I'm your father above
you are not lost any longer
for here I stand, I AM I AM

Come home children
come home
this world has nothing new
it shines up its throne of old old chrome
its time for a brand new thing
cast off the old
on with the new
the thing you've been told
but knew that was true
You've ignored me long enough
now I'm waiting here for you to come

I'm Better

The rain is pouring fast
down my window pane
The lights are going out
down the quiet lane
I guess its morning now
I guess I stayed up late
But I feel better now
that you know...

I just couldn't fall asleep
those demons were keeping me up
Those thoughts rushed through my brain,
I felt I'd go insane
I'd felt I'd enough

It was time to come clean
it was time to tell you what I'd seen
myself become
And I cried, cause I saw the nail scars that I'd caused
it cost you so much so dearly

But you said Dear
dont let it get you down
I am here now
I am here now
I've been here all along
singing you this song
but you couldn't belong
but I knew it wouldn't be long

The rain is pouring fast
down my window pane
The lights are going out
down the quiet lane
I guess its morning now
I guess I stayed up late
But I feel better now
that you know...

Break Feathers

I step out on the water
I step out of the boat
But I begin to falter
And fall apart from float
I can't see your hands
But I need them now
I'm past the understand
and on the underside of clouds

Crows and vultures gather round
But I am no better
look at the ashes of my soul
chained up with fetters
Jesus wont you please come help me now
I am sinking down
Broken feathers on the ground
Cause I always break feathers

You call out, keep your eyes on me
Even though you can't see
focus your heart and mind
on the side of light
on the side of my might