Both Ends

Lifting up like morning mist
coming down like an iron fist
Running through a driving rain
Sitting in a quiet place

Here I am
on both ends
here to take
the bitter and amends
Here I am
Taking closer steps
Here to make
the enemies and friends
Coming ever closer to where I want to be
past what my eyes can see

Coming out like I don't know where to go
Driving up tears only heaven knows
Settling down in a peaceful sleep
Deep in battle with an army of me

I'm on both ends
deep in battle
and making amends
in a war with me
trying to keep the peace
someone has to win
I hope it isn't me
my sword is stained with sin
I lay it at your feet

Echo to The Sky

World don't yell at me
I'm trying to sort this out
You don't make sense to me
So I'm taking you down

I'm leaving you behind
along these sandy shores
Don't cry our last goodbye
It's time I lived alone

The only thing you'll hear from me
is my echo to the sky
The sand leaves my imprint behind
as I lift my head up high
Still in the ache
Before my spirit breaks
like the break of mourning dawns
comes the morning song
It all is up and over in the vastness of this short moment
Before the sand is lapped up by tide
here comes back my echo
my echo to the sky

Answer my questions world if you can, if you can
You seem to have forgotten the greater plan, the greater plan
and alone on these lonely sands
I remember that I stand in his Hands
the answer to my echo to the stars
is the bleeding of his broken heart
His open arms
His red nail scars

Thoughts At Night

Its 1 am
here I am again
These heavy eyes can't fall asleep
when they close the thoughts they keep
me awake
so I'll take
this moment away
from my busy day
that will soon arise with the sun
to sort out my thoughts with the one
who made the beat and breath
of the heavy sighs and the rainy depths
the light and air
the pen and stare
the pain and gratification
of bleeding ink and anticipation

Capturing thoughts in a jar
like fireflies
Making the world come apart
before it dies
you make me to understand
when I simply can't
Being undone is alright
sitting in the presence of the Author of Life

Like fireflies
like starry skies
like moonbeams
dancing in my eyes
Like teary nights
Like thunder fights
Like moon dreams
flooding out the spite

Here you are breathing peace
here you breathing rest
I find I'm breathing with ease
As I let go to take what is best
You understand my grasping heart
and when all seems to fall apart
you let the fireflies go
and the whole world is caught in their glow

Capturing thoughts in a jar
like fireflies
Making the world come apart
before it dies
you make me to understand
when I simply can't
Being undone is alright
sitting in the presence of the Author of Life

Soul Tree

Deep in the ground
Hands reachin out
there is growing
a knowing
deep and high in me

Deep and high
behind these eyes
deep and high
long and wide

There is a tree inside of my soul
the one that is blowing and sighing oh!
It comes and it grows
and only we know
the initials carved deep in its heart
oh! the deepest part of me
deep and high in me
in my soul there is a tree

I am ever changing
the seasons pull on me
I change from the dead of winter
to the life of spring
hear my sigh
hear my whispery cry
Grow your love in me
Deep and high in me
Grow your love in me
Deep in High like my tree

I'm sitting here
Listening
Is there any hope
for this symphony
this symphony
They crash and burn
with there words
creating new scars
that will take them too far
I can see the reflection
behind imperfection
of deep despair
wishing you were here
But God you are among us
can you here these desperate cries
Lord heal these eyes
give sight to the blind
and serve the deathly wound on pride
Righteous angers burns within
as I listen
but they do not know how far they fall
from the Morning Star
How can I have the right
to turn my back and hide my light
For who am I
just a wretch who was saved one night
I will never give up this fight
even if my prayers burn at least they're a bright
spark in someones eyes
and maybe one day they will realize
I can see the reflection
behind imperfection
of deep despair
wishing you were here
But God you are among us
can you here these desperate cries
Lord heal these eyes
give sight to the blind
and serve the deathly wound on pride
With judgment on one hand
and grace upon the other nail scarred plan
God do what is right
in your sight
You've saved me from pride
Given me a heart tonight
Help my flesh not to crave judgments
but to understand the mercy you sent
How easy
for me
to say they are unlovely
But how many times have I been hard to love, see
you've shown me mercy
help me to do what is right
give me wisdom alright
I ask for your heart tonight

Lonely Only

Loneliness is a state of mind
when we push away all that we left behind
and step into a void that no ones knows
they can see it in your eyes a painful glow

And I'm finding this is more the truth
I'm finding myself lonely only for you
Because the world and I
do not coincide
I realize
that I am not in step
and I long for you cause I am not with you yet

I am lonely in a busy world
that does not hear the beautiful Word
lonely behind these eyes
looking for your face in the skies

Ten

I'm sitting here
by the shore
alone at last
cold to the center core

How did I end up here
only ten tears fall
to disappear
That's when I find you near
and You're holding on
when my strength is long gone
When I would wave goodbye
you hold my head up high
You're pushing me
through the rain
through heartwrench and pain
You make my eyes sing

I've been huddled on a dark ocean floor
giving up on the idea of an open door
But you somehow lift my eyes to the light
and I feel in my heart its gonna be alright

How did I end up here
only ten tears fall
to disappear
That's when I find you near
and You're holding on
when my strength is long gone
When I would wave goodbye
you hold my head up high
You're pushing me
through the rain
through heartwrench and pain
You make my eyes sing

Big Eyes

Sitting up late at night
Nothing seems to sit right
I've tried too hard
Now I've slid too far
and I am left with lonely me

I'm watching for the sun's big eyes
The moon is scolding me in the night
I'm waiting for the dawn to break light
To make this right
Cause I'm waiting
I'm waiting for those big eyes

Cause the black of the night
Reflects the darkness of my soul
So much of me wants to fix the inside
But you've already made me whole
you've made me full

So even in the darkest night
you are the Sunrise
You have the Sun's big eyes

His Noise

I've seen the worst part
the worst scar
I've seen the blackest night
I've seen the worst heart
the worst mar
I've seen the darkness rise

But I'm not going down
Cause we'll win the fight

You can't break my back this time around
I've found the voice who was making the sound
He was making the sound
That sound of the light beams
shattering the lonely streets
He made the sound
you won't win this time around

Dawn is coming
He's marchin in
He's marchin in
Light is running
its flooding
marchin in
marchin in

More New

I try to hold on to what I used to know
but everything inside of me says let go
I try so hard to not fall down
It's made its mark the past is only sound

Its not enough
I'm more than I was before
I'm learning to trust
the tide that moves the shore
the shore goes back for more
Cause I'm more new than I was before

You're moving me
through what I can't see
I would not have chosen this path
but given the chance I would not go back
You write my life with the infinite pen
and these words I will learn to trust in

Its not enough
I'm more than I was before
I'm learning to trust
the tide that moves the shore
the shore goes back for more
Cause I'm more new than I was before

Some say the shore can't move
but I'm the shore that proves them wrong
You're long suffering and you love me
you've set me free
to be in motion
you're the tide of the ocean
and I am a moving shore
I'm more new than I was before

Finally Snapped

Finally snapped
finally sapped
on your throne
on your own
not what you thought
not what you bought
too high a price
to cry a life

When he asked you that day
you thought hey
this is the golden opportunity
so you gave your self away
put your soul on display
to the ones born on the darkest day
So here you are
fallen man
See your scar
crawling stand
you sold your soul for so little
now its your turn to break whats brittle
to make them fall

Finally snapped
finally sapped
on your throne
on your own
not what you thought
not what you bought
too high a price
to cry a life

You feed off of others downfalls
Your kingdom is full of those who crawl
down into dark places
filled with dreary faces
who all look to each others for answers but come up empty
this isn't what you thought it would be

And now you see your trouble
the double mistake
you cursed your love
and loved your hate
and now the very thing
that drove you
is the only way you know you
are fallen
so come crawling back home
where you're not alone
you are not supposed to own the world
so come crawling back home
he will never leave you scarred and cold
He's the one who made your soul
and will overcome the one who stole

Finally snapped
come on back
finally home
not on your own
don't have to hold the dark together
let the light shine in and make you better
the black will wear off as he looses the fetters
Come on back home
leave the dark alone

Like the Song

Not sure this is worth it
probably been said before
Just about everyone has heard this
but that won't stop my heart shore

I'm fading in and out
Like the song
Sustaining a bit of doubt
Like the song along the shore
where your Holy feet grew sore
to bring us so much more
This is song of the apostles
this is the song of the forgotten gospels
that penetrate our spirit
if we stop to hear it
like the song

This is the tune for the ones you
prayed for
but were not able to stay awake
Lord we pray
take our hearts away
to a better place not of this world
while we are living in its words

Make us strangers in this land
let us be led only by your hand
We are just lost and lonely sheep
we pray that we'll be in your keep

Memo to The Ones

This song is for the ones
who would have me unstrung
This is the anthem of the sun
The sun that will come when the dark is done

To the ones who would have me laid out on the wayside
Filled with curses and ripped verses from the gray side

We have already won
the moon is shining out
though the darkness shuns
the light it finds it must back down
so to the ones who would have me undone
We have already won

So I will not be discouraged
when the road looks dark and scourged with
the lashes of bitter tounges and blood runs
down from the faces of those who war for the cause
Those who serve the Narrow will not always be lost

To the ones who would have me laid out on the wayside
Filled with curses and ripped verses from the gray side

We have already won
the moon is shining out
though the darkness shuns
the light it finds it must back down
so to the ones who would have me undone
We have already won

Daylight will come
Daylight will win over thee
Daylight will come
Daylight will bring peace

Light in Flight

Descending to us
from the above
A child's face of love
We did not know it
We could not show it
We heard you cry
and we passed you by

Oh the Light in flight
Oh the Glorious Might
In a shattered past
your voice like pieces of glass
cutting through the misty veil
Though we should bow and hail you King
We missed the mark of your light

Coming down upon us
Curing us of soul rust
You healed our wounds
and we followed you
only long enough to inflict revenge
on the innocent
We did not know it
We couldn't show it
We heard you cry
and we passed you by

Oh the Light in flight
Oh the Glorious Might
In a shattered past
your voice like pieces of glass
cutting through the misty veil
Though we should bow and hail you King
We missed the mark of your light

What a bittersweet moment when we knew
the blood on our hands was from you
and we knew the Truth
you were the one we'd waited for
the only thing we need adore
You are the Lord

We saw the Light in Flight
We saw the Light in Flight
Fury and Grace upon his face
Golden Glory in this place
We saw the Light in Flight
We will not pass you by

Oh the Light in flight
Oh the Glorious Might
In a shattered past
your voice like pieces of glass
cutting through the misty veil
we will bow and hail you King
the sky praise and ring
We saw the Light in Flight

You Remind Me

When the sun rolls out of bed
And the moon lays down her head
I'm reminded again

When I shut my eyes to sleep in the deep end
And find me waking up mercy written in red
I'm reminded again

You always remind me
that one day you'll come and find me
and I know
that your glow
will permeate
the darkness that I hate
You always remind me
Just when I need a rail
You are the one who will never ever
never ever fail

When the stars sing bright at night
when the music starts to ring
I'm reminded again

When the ocean crashes against moonlight
and the only way to see is horizon line sight
I'm reminded again

Limbs and Branches

The Sun is alive
But I'm down below
With the ones to strive
to keep the fire cold

I am just the limbs and the branches
Heaven knows that I'm alone
Subject to whims and fancies
of my heart that turns to stone
when I'm not with you
I need your help and that's the truth
cause you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches
you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches

The moon is on fire
But I'm feeling old
Because I am the poison
that creeps into my soul

I need the anchor
of true salvation
to cure my rancor
to save my inside nation


I am just the limbs and the branches
Heaven knows that I'm alone
Subject to whims and fancies
of my heart that turns to stone
when I'm not with you
I need your help and that's the truth
cause you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches
you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches

Coming Up Down

Here I am walking the same sidewalks
the same rocks
block my way
Here I am kicking the same bricks
the same sticks
break my back and face

I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down with something
I ready to break sound
to unfreeze the now I feel it drumming up

I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so mixed up
so fix up my life
I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so messed up
so lets pick up the pieces
the breath and release of upside right
yeah, coming up down tonight

Here I am watching the same sun rise
the same fights
Light up hate
Here I am hitting the same wall
the same fall
Please don't be late

I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down with something
I ready to break sound
to unfreeze the now I feel it drumming up

I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so mixed up
so fix up my life
I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so messed up
so lets pick up the pieces
the breath and release of upside right
yeah, coming up down tonight

Burn

Waiting for daylight
that never comes
Hoping to stay light
though they've been stung
hurting more than words can say
under the crushing weight
of their world
departing

Were left smarting
from the sting
and crying
as the wings of heaven
wash over our love
her soul and spirit rise up
like a little white dove

Please
hold me Jesus
She held the pieces
I'm cold and alone here now
We really need your help somehow
Please hold me Father
She was our water
and bread
how could she be stolen by death
Come and conquer this land
Please Jesus hold me in your hand

Our world looks dark
the blackness took the lark
The candle has burned out
Our quiet despair is our shout
Angry thought and angry words
rush with tears into a blur
we tear our hearts
were torn apart
can you bring life to these broken parts

Time will never wash away her face
Time can never bring one to replace
Time is a thief but you robbed the grave
so that we might be saved
So we will not sit in darkness you are the light
And even in our grief
you are the relief
we'll see our love again
for love is never dead
You are the light
hold me tight
we will be alright

Make Me to Lie Down

Wringing my hands in despair
I've grown used to feeling wear
Am I not trusting you
have I grown accustom to
feeling my disaster
spinning out faster

Make me to lie down
For I know this know
I strive in vain
Make me do lie down
For I know this know
I'm tossed like the rain
in the wind and I think I
know what I've got
but I don't really know what I want

You are my creator
Im just the mess maker
I'm putting my hands
and feet
onto lonely streets
I've become frazzled with worry
The whole world spins blurry
in a hurry

Make me to lie down
For I know this know
I strive in vain
Make me do lie down
For I know this know
I'm tossed like the rain
in the wind and I think I
know what I've got
but I don't really know what I want

You close doors and open windows
and I spend time prying doors with blows
You close doors and open windows
And I spend time trying where all the wind blows

The Nothing Else Matters Song

Things fade
they pass me by
My eyelashes wave
The trees sway
Blurred like rainy confusion
Circles and swells of silence
My hopes and dreams my delusions
Someone above the air of relents
Soaring past the things that slip through my fingers
My joy my sadness passing through my being like a screen
I am lost and found in a wave of sobbing tranquility that lingers
Nothing inside of me is as it seems
My outside and insides collide in a beautiful mess
My tears are my drink
My laughter is my food and fullness
I watch for I am the island in a storm that never sinks
My fingers fly to pen who I am
For who am I
Rolling by in this train ride
the steam rises like the ocean
And I am its restless restful tide
I am the one who drank the love potion
The Moon with his beautiful singing face watches me
He watches me with a fervent face
I rest under his gaze that penetrates the ceiling
for none other in the world knows my name
My fingers press against the cold window glass
Some pity me as water streaks down both of our faces
The liquid of the soul and rain tell stories of the past
They rush into a river when I close my eyes and carry me away to lonely accompanied places

Vain

Sometimes the sky pales down
sometimes silence swells to sound
in these times my blood freezes like ice
in these times my soul stops to think twice

Is it all in vain
that I feel any pain
are they too far gone
gone like last notes of a song
am I chasing vapors
why spend time loving haters
am I shouting to deaf ears
blind eyes see no fears
have you no understanding
theres no place for landing
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
can you hear this song coming unstrung
Then I sigh back down
and I am quite unsound and undone

I feel like a hurricane
please tell me its not in vain
did he bleed for nothing
can you see it might be something
I feel like the driving rain
you're crawling away
please don't go
please don't go
with all of my heart I want to save your soul
but the words just wont come out
I'm a slave to the silence now
Your fading out
your fading out
is this all in vain
play the string
and get your way
be the puppet who cant runaway
be the one who slumbers without sleep
one of these days you'll find you cant keep your gold
you'll slip and fold without a foothold
I find myself reeling
can you see me feeling
your pain
in vain

Cards and Creeds

I put my hands on the table
I think I know what hand I've been dealt
But you know of what I'm capable
and even as I'm embittered you feel what I've felt

So I won't give up
I won't go close shut
I will lay these grievances
upon my heedlessness
and on them this one broken part
of a start when the sun swells up
and the start is just the beginning of enough
I won't give up
you are enough

I place my heart in the deck
It's a bit embered over
I can't recall the day I began my trek
I've tried everything from the spades to the clovers

But I have this one thing
its the wild card
I drop the game I've been playing
and places all my tally marks inside your scars


So I won't give up
I won't go close shut
I will lay these grievances
upon my heedlessness
and on them this one broken part
of a start when the sun swells up
and the start is just the beginning of enough
I won't give up
you are enough

Empty

I see you try again
turning your cheek to your friend
but they are your enemies
tongue and cheek you find no peace

I see you cry again
but no water falls from your face then
you have the face of a mountain
no longer the fountain of youth that your face boasts

Empty here
You're empty here
A cold dark room with no light
in close sight
you can't fight
you feel bitten
and bite off
but its smitten
How long can the cold hold you within
Empty here

I see you fly again
I see you crash in the end
It all its so empty and vain
You can't always brush off the pain
You havent found the cure
You're looking over your shoulder you're never sure
Who are your alibis
who are the gritty eyes
whose the sweet poision
who toys with your soul

Empty here
You're empty here
A cold dark room with no light
in close sight
you can't fight
you feel bitten
and bite off
but its smitten
How long can the cold hold you within
Empty here

But this is just a room
just four walls and a tune
call on the one
who calls up the sun
who made all life
and can make up for lost time
you dont have to be alone anymore
this room can come down to the floor
Just call and He'll come through and kick down your door
You won't let it go until hes rescued your soul