Apathetic Apologetic

Just because the key lies on the table
doesn't mean that your able
to unlock the mystery
Just because the key lies on the table
doesn't mean you are capable
of understanding the unseen

A little apathy
has gotten beneath your skin
you've crawled inside the bars
and caged yourself in,
inside its arms
the world holds charms
swallow them whole and wake up to scars

And its scaring me
what have you got yourself into
don't say to me
that that's just what you do
cause you know now
you're not really living at all
locked up in the downside of the fall

Just because you knew once how to breath
doesn't mean it comes with ease
at least not anymore
Just because you once could see
doesn't mean you kept trying
to open up the door


A little apathy
has gotten beneath your skin
you've crawled inside the bars
and caged yourself in,
inside its arms
the world holds charms
swallow them whole and wake up to scars

And its scaring me
what have you got yourself into
don't say to me
that that's just what you do
cause you know now
you're not really living at all
locked up in the downside of the fall

Forever Always

Its time I told you what was on my mind
to tell you what I fight through inside
how I wish I could rewind and take you through those nights
and you would wipe the tears from my eyes

Its time I told you how my spirit fell
to the bottom of that well
so many stories I could tell
so many secrets I could sell

To you I turn it over right now
cause you'll mend it somehow
turn my world upside down
to make it better
forever always we'll be together
Your love and mercy is light
The world can't hold me down alright
cause I left the world forever always to make a right

Forever always you will never leave me
even when my eyes are blind and can't see
your loving arms will be holding me
despite myself and in spite of me
you carried my cost and delight in me

All I can do is weep
and ask to serve, bowing at your feet
I'll never deserve your love so sweet
but I give you all I have, I give you all of me

To you I turn it over right now
cause you'll mend it somehow
turn my world upside down
to make it better
forever always we'll be together
Your love and mercy is light
The world can't hold me down alright
cause I left the world forever always to make a right

How Many Diamonds

I've been thinking about motives
why we do what we do and to hold it
When we stand before that throne
when we truly see the good and bad alone

Li da di Li da di di oh

I don't believe he'll be judging me
but how will I feel as he's loving me
if I did not do what I was supposed to
What will become of me, and what had ever come from me
When he burns away all the hay and stubble
when he removes all the rubble and pulls me out of the wreck
will I only see a burning mess
how many diamonds for his glory
without a thought of my own story
Li da di Li da di di oh oh
Li da di Li oh oh

I do not want to be ashamed
when he calls forth my name
I want to be complete in humility
and then forget and not be proud of me
its such a hard thing to forget the face in the mirror
no matter what you do it won't disappear

Wither I Go

Maybe I look misty eyed
but its not from any tears that I've cried
I just can't wait
my spirit shakes

I diligently watch the skies
not wanting to miss the sight of your eyes
when you come back for me
I'm willing and waiting

When I see the sunsets
and the birds fly away
I know that my heart's set
for you on that day
and wither I go I care not as long as I'm with you
When I see the clouds roll
and thunder rush on high
I sigh within myself
it could be tonight
and wither I go I care not because I'll be with you

I want to look into your eyes
for a thousand years
I want to see the hands
that swept away my fears
I want to dance in the arms of my mighty God
I want to weep at the feet of my Father

And though my heart will tremble with sighs
I'll stand face to face with the Light giving Life
It could be today it could be tonight
And if you come to take me when my life is to depart
I'll close my eyes, and care not, I'll fly straight to your heart


When I see the sunsets
and the birds fly away
I know that my heart's set
for you on that day
and wither I go I care not as long as I'm with you
When I see the clouds roll
and thunder rush on high
I sigh within myself
it could be tonight
and wither I go I care not because I'll be with you

Come Home

Come to me all who are weary
weary of this world
Come to me all who are teary
eyed
Come to me all who are dreary
dingy colors unfurled
Come to me all who are nearly
mine

Come home children
come home
this world has nothing new
it shines up its throne of old old chrome
its time for a brand new thing
cast off the old
on with the new
the thing you've been told
but knew that was true
You've ignored me long enough
now I'm waiting here for you to come

Come to me sinners and saints
you are all the same,
yet I know each of your eyes, and your name
Dear one you are loved
yes you, and I'm your father above
you are not lost any longer
for here I stand, I AM I AM

Come home children
come home
this world has nothing new
it shines up its throne of old old chrome
its time for a brand new thing
cast off the old
on with the new
the thing you've been told
but knew that was true
You've ignored me long enough
now I'm waiting here for you to come

I'm Better

The rain is pouring fast
down my window pane
The lights are going out
down the quiet lane
I guess its morning now
I guess I stayed up late
But I feel better now
that you know...

I just couldn't fall asleep
those demons were keeping me up
Those thoughts rushed through my brain,
I felt I'd go insane
I'd felt I'd enough

It was time to come clean
it was time to tell you what I'd seen
myself become
And I cried, cause I saw the nail scars that I'd caused
it cost you so much so dearly

But you said Dear
dont let it get you down
I am here now
I am here now
I've been here all along
singing you this song
but you couldn't belong
but I knew it wouldn't be long

The rain is pouring fast
down my window pane
The lights are going out
down the quiet lane
I guess its morning now
I guess I stayed up late
But I feel better now
that you know...

Break Feathers

I step out on the water
I step out of the boat
But I begin to falter
And fall apart from float
I can't see your hands
But I need them now
I'm past the understand
and on the underside of clouds

Crows and vultures gather round
But I am no better
look at the ashes of my soul
chained up with fetters
Jesus wont you please come help me now
I am sinking down
Broken feathers on the ground
Cause I always break feathers

You call out, keep your eyes on me
Even though you can't see
focus your heart and mind
on the side of light
on the side of my might

Sara's Song

Draw me nearer, oh so near
I want to hear you, oh so near
I want to feel you, but oh my dear
oh dear God, why aren't you here

I didn't ask for much
just one thing
I wanted to touch
Your love and sing
I wished to sing of you forever
but ever didn't come
can I be ever sure you are the one

Break these walls
I know there here
I'm trying to find a proof of you that disappears
Make them fall, cause I hear your voice
its calling me, come while you have a choice
I want to come, I want to run into your arms
so break down everything,
and let me witness your scars

I'm so familiar only with my stone cold ways
I have no understanding of forgiveness and grace
I cannot leave my past behind me, but throw it away
though I look behind me show me your face
I know I'm undeserving, I nailed your hands and feet
so break me of this world returned for peace so sweet

Break these walls
I know there here
I'm trying to find a proof of you that disappears
Make them fall, cause I hear your voice
its calling me, come while you have a choice
I want to come, I want to run into your arms
so break down everything,
and let me witness your scars

Every Good Thing

Its a brand new morning with the sun in the sky
the breeze is brightly blowing catching the tune in my eye
and I fly over every trouble
over the wreck and rubble
because I know just this
with you there is nothing I'll miss

Every good thing comes from you
and if trouble's on the rise you'll see me through
whatever comes my way
has passed your test
and so through love and hate
you'll do what's best

I've put my trust in you
I won't take it back cause you will see me through

Another day is done
we say farewell to another sun
hope to see it again
but if I don't well then my friend
I'll see you in that place
where I can see your face
and life will begin
cause the end is not the end

Every good thing comes from you
and if trouble's on the rise you'll see me through
whatever comes my way
has passed your test
and so through love and hate
you'll do what's best

I've put my trust in you
I won't take it back cause you will see me through

Life From Death

A flower falls to the earth unnoticed and dies
with no one to weep, it neither hungers or cries
As it sinks into the soil
the seed begins to toil
and as death comes so does life

While it was alive, death was inside
now as death comes to steal,
the life breaths and heals
maybe to live is to die
and to die is to have life

My heart longs to be seen as I pass by
to not sink to the grave as common on the fly
But to take up my cross is the bring Heaven close
and to die is to be with the One I love most
When he breaths my spirit alive
My heart and will, will die

While it was alive, death was inside
now as death comes to steal,
the life breaths and heals
maybe to live is to die
and to die is to have life

Tied Out

Oh I'm a little busy girl,
in a great big busy world
it's so easy to forget I'm leaving this old place behind me
cause sometimes worry finds me out
as I step through my ring of doubts
I sense deja-vu, and I smile at you
will I ever learn now,
taking the same turn now

And I try to hide
behind peace that comes from inside
but it runs out dry and leaves a thirst behind
cause I just got started in my day
but oh heavens forgot to pray
I've got a burden Dear God,
you smile and say how odd
so I smile back and let you unwind
my busy mind and the knots I've tied

And so many times my breath rushes back
and you catch my hand and say just relax
you gave that thing to me, now sit and practice peace
at my feet
your worry won't do anything
please trust in me

Awaken Hey

They look into his bleeding face
and say he's getting blood all over the place
what does he mean by coming in this way
does he know who we are
is he some dignitary from afar
well maybe we'll hear what he has to say

you cold hearted stones
you children who grow old
now is the time
to wake up and change your mind
He's not just a bleeding man
he burst at the heart
was pierced at the hands
when this world falls apart
He'll be the last thing, the only thing that stands

Hey you weary people
come here to the steeple
here we'll weep and here we'll die
it's not about being good
if you thing that your lost for good
its got to be shown and understood
the only way not to die
is to give up your very life
if you don't you'll perish like light extinguished, alright

Hello Robot

We're born into chaos, joy, love and strife
we find out this race is something called life
but life aint a race or all that it seems
and twenty years later we all are machines

We're born here to die
as some of them said
but the stars in the sky echo straight through our head
theres gotta be a meaning to this being alive
but the ends and the means wont meet tonight
hello
hello

and we all try to find the ends of the means
and twenty years later we all are machines
we still haven't found what our hearts desire
maybe our hearts are charred stone and not fire
we've been burnt and busied by frivolous things
all the time missing the fact we've got wings
we didn't see the face through the muck and the mire
cause we're all just machines now metal and wire
hello
hello

Maybe the means will finally have ends
when our hearts begin melting and beating to bend
maybe one day we will understand
that the beauty of choas is peace in His hands

and we all try to find the ends of the means
and twenty years later we all are machines
we still haven't found what our hearts desire
maybe our hearts are charred stone and not fire
we've been burnt and busied by frivolous things
all the time missing the fact we've got wings
we didn't see the face through the muck and the mire
cause we're all just machines now metal and wire
hello
hello

Look at all the busy work
like worms we crawl around in the dirt
but we don't have to crawl
we've got wings after all
but we busy ourselves
in our robotic shells
to keep the truth away from our space
cause we just don't want the truth of His loving face
hello
oh hello
im man not machine
as I look down below
hello
hello
come join in the sunset
a sky of His meadows
hello

and we all ingore the facts of the ends of the means
and twenty years later we all are machines