Both Ends

Lifting up like morning mist
coming down like an iron fist
Running through a driving rain
Sitting in a quiet place

Here I am
on both ends
here to take
the bitter and amends
Here I am
Taking closer steps
Here to make
the enemies and friends
Coming ever closer to where I want to be
past what my eyes can see

Coming out like I don't know where to go
Driving up tears only heaven knows
Settling down in a peaceful sleep
Deep in battle with an army of me

I'm on both ends
deep in battle
and making amends
in a war with me
trying to keep the peace
someone has to win
I hope it isn't me
my sword is stained with sin
I lay it at your feet

Echo to The Sky

World don't yell at me
I'm trying to sort this out
You don't make sense to me
So I'm taking you down

I'm leaving you behind
along these sandy shores
Don't cry our last goodbye
It's time I lived alone

The only thing you'll hear from me
is my echo to the sky
The sand leaves my imprint behind
as I lift my head up high
Still in the ache
Before my spirit breaks
like the break of mourning dawns
comes the morning song
It all is up and over in the vastness of this short moment
Before the sand is lapped up by tide
here comes back my echo
my echo to the sky

Answer my questions world if you can, if you can
You seem to have forgotten the greater plan, the greater plan
and alone on these lonely sands
I remember that I stand in his Hands
the answer to my echo to the stars
is the bleeding of his broken heart
His open arms
His red nail scars

Thoughts At Night

Its 1 am
here I am again
These heavy eyes can't fall asleep
when they close the thoughts they keep
me awake
so I'll take
this moment away
from my busy day
that will soon arise with the sun
to sort out my thoughts with the one
who made the beat and breath
of the heavy sighs and the rainy depths
the light and air
the pen and stare
the pain and gratification
of bleeding ink and anticipation

Capturing thoughts in a jar
like fireflies
Making the world come apart
before it dies
you make me to understand
when I simply can't
Being undone is alright
sitting in the presence of the Author of Life

Like fireflies
like starry skies
like moonbeams
dancing in my eyes
Like teary nights
Like thunder fights
Like moon dreams
flooding out the spite

Here you are breathing peace
here you breathing rest
I find I'm breathing with ease
As I let go to take what is best
You understand my grasping heart
and when all seems to fall apart
you let the fireflies go
and the whole world is caught in their glow

Capturing thoughts in a jar
like fireflies
Making the world come apart
before it dies
you make me to understand
when I simply can't
Being undone is alright
sitting in the presence of the Author of Life

Soul Tree

Deep in the ground
Hands reachin out
there is growing
a knowing
deep and high in me

Deep and high
behind these eyes
deep and high
long and wide

There is a tree inside of my soul
the one that is blowing and sighing oh!
It comes and it grows
and only we know
the initials carved deep in its heart
oh! the deepest part of me
deep and high in me
in my soul there is a tree

I am ever changing
the seasons pull on me
I change from the dead of winter
to the life of spring
hear my sigh
hear my whispery cry
Grow your love in me
Deep and high in me
Grow your love in me
Deep in High like my tree

I'm sitting here
Listening
Is there any hope
for this symphony
this symphony
They crash and burn
with there words
creating new scars
that will take them too far
I can see the reflection
behind imperfection
of deep despair
wishing you were here
But God you are among us
can you here these desperate cries
Lord heal these eyes
give sight to the blind
and serve the deathly wound on pride
Righteous angers burns within
as I listen
but they do not know how far they fall
from the Morning Star
How can I have the right
to turn my back and hide my light
For who am I
just a wretch who was saved one night
I will never give up this fight
even if my prayers burn at least they're a bright
spark in someones eyes
and maybe one day they will realize
I can see the reflection
behind imperfection
of deep despair
wishing you were here
But God you are among us
can you here these desperate cries
Lord heal these eyes
give sight to the blind
and serve the deathly wound on pride
With judgment on one hand
and grace upon the other nail scarred plan
God do what is right
in your sight
You've saved me from pride
Given me a heart tonight
Help my flesh not to crave judgments
but to understand the mercy you sent
How easy
for me
to say they are unlovely
But how many times have I been hard to love, see
you've shown me mercy
help me to do what is right
give me wisdom alright
I ask for your heart tonight

Lonely Only

Loneliness is a state of mind
when we push away all that we left behind
and step into a void that no ones knows
they can see it in your eyes a painful glow

And I'm finding this is more the truth
I'm finding myself lonely only for you
Because the world and I
do not coincide
I realize
that I am not in step
and I long for you cause I am not with you yet

I am lonely in a busy world
that does not hear the beautiful Word
lonely behind these eyes
looking for your face in the skies

Ten

I'm sitting here
by the shore
alone at last
cold to the center core

How did I end up here
only ten tears fall
to disappear
That's when I find you near
and You're holding on
when my strength is long gone
When I would wave goodbye
you hold my head up high
You're pushing me
through the rain
through heartwrench and pain
You make my eyes sing

I've been huddled on a dark ocean floor
giving up on the idea of an open door
But you somehow lift my eyes to the light
and I feel in my heart its gonna be alright

How did I end up here
only ten tears fall
to disappear
That's when I find you near
and You're holding on
when my strength is long gone
When I would wave goodbye
you hold my head up high
You're pushing me
through the rain
through heartwrench and pain
You make my eyes sing

Big Eyes

Sitting up late at night
Nothing seems to sit right
I've tried too hard
Now I've slid too far
and I am left with lonely me

I'm watching for the sun's big eyes
The moon is scolding me in the night
I'm waiting for the dawn to break light
To make this right
Cause I'm waiting
I'm waiting for those big eyes

Cause the black of the night
Reflects the darkness of my soul
So much of me wants to fix the inside
But you've already made me whole
you've made me full

So even in the darkest night
you are the Sunrise
You have the Sun's big eyes

His Noise

I've seen the worst part
the worst scar
I've seen the blackest night
I've seen the worst heart
the worst mar
I've seen the darkness rise

But I'm not going down
Cause we'll win the fight

You can't break my back this time around
I've found the voice who was making the sound
He was making the sound
That sound of the light beams
shattering the lonely streets
He made the sound
you won't win this time around

Dawn is coming
He's marchin in
He's marchin in
Light is running
its flooding
marchin in
marchin in

More New

I try to hold on to what I used to know
but everything inside of me says let go
I try so hard to not fall down
It's made its mark the past is only sound

Its not enough
I'm more than I was before
I'm learning to trust
the tide that moves the shore
the shore goes back for more
Cause I'm more new than I was before

You're moving me
through what I can't see
I would not have chosen this path
but given the chance I would not go back
You write my life with the infinite pen
and these words I will learn to trust in

Its not enough
I'm more than I was before
I'm learning to trust
the tide that moves the shore
the shore goes back for more
Cause I'm more new than I was before

Some say the shore can't move
but I'm the shore that proves them wrong
You're long suffering and you love me
you've set me free
to be in motion
you're the tide of the ocean
and I am a moving shore
I'm more new than I was before

Finally Snapped

Finally snapped
finally sapped
on your throne
on your own
not what you thought
not what you bought
too high a price
to cry a life

When he asked you that day
you thought hey
this is the golden opportunity
so you gave your self away
put your soul on display
to the ones born on the darkest day
So here you are
fallen man
See your scar
crawling stand
you sold your soul for so little
now its your turn to break whats brittle
to make them fall

Finally snapped
finally sapped
on your throne
on your own
not what you thought
not what you bought
too high a price
to cry a life

You feed off of others downfalls
Your kingdom is full of those who crawl
down into dark places
filled with dreary faces
who all look to each others for answers but come up empty
this isn't what you thought it would be

And now you see your trouble
the double mistake
you cursed your love
and loved your hate
and now the very thing
that drove you
is the only way you know you
are fallen
so come crawling back home
where you're not alone
you are not supposed to own the world
so come crawling back home
he will never leave you scarred and cold
He's the one who made your soul
and will overcome the one who stole

Finally snapped
come on back
finally home
not on your own
don't have to hold the dark together
let the light shine in and make you better
the black will wear off as he looses the fetters
Come on back home
leave the dark alone

Like the Song

Not sure this is worth it
probably been said before
Just about everyone has heard this
but that won't stop my heart shore

I'm fading in and out
Like the song
Sustaining a bit of doubt
Like the song along the shore
where your Holy feet grew sore
to bring us so much more
This is song of the apostles
this is the song of the forgotten gospels
that penetrate our spirit
if we stop to hear it
like the song

This is the tune for the ones you
prayed for
but were not able to stay awake
Lord we pray
take our hearts away
to a better place not of this world
while we are living in its words

Make us strangers in this land
let us be led only by your hand
We are just lost and lonely sheep
we pray that we'll be in your keep

Memo to The Ones

This song is for the ones
who would have me unstrung
This is the anthem of the sun
The sun that will come when the dark is done

To the ones who would have me laid out on the wayside
Filled with curses and ripped verses from the gray side

We have already won
the moon is shining out
though the darkness shuns
the light it finds it must back down
so to the ones who would have me undone
We have already won

So I will not be discouraged
when the road looks dark and scourged with
the lashes of bitter tounges and blood runs
down from the faces of those who war for the cause
Those who serve the Narrow will not always be lost

To the ones who would have me laid out on the wayside
Filled with curses and ripped verses from the gray side

We have already won
the moon is shining out
though the darkness shuns
the light it finds it must back down
so to the ones who would have me undone
We have already won

Daylight will come
Daylight will win over thee
Daylight will come
Daylight will bring peace

Light in Flight

Descending to us
from the above
A child's face of love
We did not know it
We could not show it
We heard you cry
and we passed you by

Oh the Light in flight
Oh the Glorious Might
In a shattered past
your voice like pieces of glass
cutting through the misty veil
Though we should bow and hail you King
We missed the mark of your light

Coming down upon us
Curing us of soul rust
You healed our wounds
and we followed you
only long enough to inflict revenge
on the innocent
We did not know it
We couldn't show it
We heard you cry
and we passed you by

Oh the Light in flight
Oh the Glorious Might
In a shattered past
your voice like pieces of glass
cutting through the misty veil
Though we should bow and hail you King
We missed the mark of your light

What a bittersweet moment when we knew
the blood on our hands was from you
and we knew the Truth
you were the one we'd waited for
the only thing we need adore
You are the Lord

We saw the Light in Flight
We saw the Light in Flight
Fury and Grace upon his face
Golden Glory in this place
We saw the Light in Flight
We will not pass you by

Oh the Light in flight
Oh the Glorious Might
In a shattered past
your voice like pieces of glass
cutting through the misty veil
we will bow and hail you King
the sky praise and ring
We saw the Light in Flight

You Remind Me

When the sun rolls out of bed
And the moon lays down her head
I'm reminded again

When I shut my eyes to sleep in the deep end
And find me waking up mercy written in red
I'm reminded again

You always remind me
that one day you'll come and find me
and I know
that your glow
will permeate
the darkness that I hate
You always remind me
Just when I need a rail
You are the one who will never ever
never ever fail

When the stars sing bright at night
when the music starts to ring
I'm reminded again

When the ocean crashes against moonlight
and the only way to see is horizon line sight
I'm reminded again

Limbs and Branches

The Sun is alive
But I'm down below
With the ones to strive
to keep the fire cold

I am just the limbs and the branches
Heaven knows that I'm alone
Subject to whims and fancies
of my heart that turns to stone
when I'm not with you
I need your help and that's the truth
cause you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches
you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches

The moon is on fire
But I'm feeling old
Because I am the poison
that creeps into my soul

I need the anchor
of true salvation
to cure my rancor
to save my inside nation


I am just the limbs and the branches
Heaven knows that I'm alone
Subject to whims and fancies
of my heart that turns to stone
when I'm not with you
I need your help and that's the truth
cause you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches
you're the roots of these limp limbs and branches

Coming Up Down

Here I am walking the same sidewalks
the same rocks
block my way
Here I am kicking the same bricks
the same sticks
break my back and face

I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down with something
I ready to break sound
to unfreeze the now I feel it drumming up

I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so mixed up
so fix up my life
I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so messed up
so lets pick up the pieces
the breath and release of upside right
yeah, coming up down tonight

Here I am watching the same sun rise
the same fights
Light up hate
Here I am hitting the same wall
the same fall
Please don't be late

I think I'm coming down
I think I'm coming down with something
I ready to break sound
to unfreeze the now I feel it drumming up

I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so mixed up
so fix up my life
I'm coming down tonight
and you're coming up
I'm so messed up
so lets pick up the pieces
the breath and release of upside right
yeah, coming up down tonight

Burn

Waiting for daylight
that never comes
Hoping to stay light
though they've been stung
hurting more than words can say
under the crushing weight
of their world
departing

Were left smarting
from the sting
and crying
as the wings of heaven
wash over our love
her soul and spirit rise up
like a little white dove

Please
hold me Jesus
She held the pieces
I'm cold and alone here now
We really need your help somehow
Please hold me Father
She was our water
and bread
how could she be stolen by death
Come and conquer this land
Please Jesus hold me in your hand

Our world looks dark
the blackness took the lark
The candle has burned out
Our quiet despair is our shout
Angry thought and angry words
rush with tears into a blur
we tear our hearts
were torn apart
can you bring life to these broken parts

Time will never wash away her face
Time can never bring one to replace
Time is a thief but you robbed the grave
so that we might be saved
So we will not sit in darkness you are the light
And even in our grief
you are the relief
we'll see our love again
for love is never dead
You are the light
hold me tight
we will be alright

Make Me to Lie Down

Wringing my hands in despair
I've grown used to feeling wear
Am I not trusting you
have I grown accustom to
feeling my disaster
spinning out faster

Make me to lie down
For I know this know
I strive in vain
Make me do lie down
For I know this know
I'm tossed like the rain
in the wind and I think I
know what I've got
but I don't really know what I want

You are my creator
Im just the mess maker
I'm putting my hands
and feet
onto lonely streets
I've become frazzled with worry
The whole world spins blurry
in a hurry

Make me to lie down
For I know this know
I strive in vain
Make me do lie down
For I know this know
I'm tossed like the rain
in the wind and I think I
know what I've got
but I don't really know what I want

You close doors and open windows
and I spend time prying doors with blows
You close doors and open windows
And I spend time trying where all the wind blows

The Nothing Else Matters Song

Things fade
they pass me by
My eyelashes wave
The trees sway
Blurred like rainy confusion
Circles and swells of silence
My hopes and dreams my delusions
Someone above the air of relents
Soaring past the things that slip through my fingers
My joy my sadness passing through my being like a screen
I am lost and found in a wave of sobbing tranquility that lingers
Nothing inside of me is as it seems
My outside and insides collide in a beautiful mess
My tears are my drink
My laughter is my food and fullness
I watch for I am the island in a storm that never sinks
My fingers fly to pen who I am
For who am I
Rolling by in this train ride
the steam rises like the ocean
And I am its restless restful tide
I am the one who drank the love potion
The Moon with his beautiful singing face watches me
He watches me with a fervent face
I rest under his gaze that penetrates the ceiling
for none other in the world knows my name
My fingers press against the cold window glass
Some pity me as water streaks down both of our faces
The liquid of the soul and rain tell stories of the past
They rush into a river when I close my eyes and carry me away to lonely accompanied places

Vain

Sometimes the sky pales down
sometimes silence swells to sound
in these times my blood freezes like ice
in these times my soul stops to think twice

Is it all in vain
that I feel any pain
are they too far gone
gone like last notes of a song
am I chasing vapors
why spend time loving haters
am I shouting to deaf ears
blind eyes see no fears
have you no understanding
theres no place for landing
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
can you hear this song coming unstrung
Then I sigh back down
and I am quite unsound and undone

I feel like a hurricane
please tell me its not in vain
did he bleed for nothing
can you see it might be something
I feel like the driving rain
you're crawling away
please don't go
please don't go
with all of my heart I want to save your soul
but the words just wont come out
I'm a slave to the silence now
Your fading out
your fading out
is this all in vain
play the string
and get your way
be the puppet who cant runaway
be the one who slumbers without sleep
one of these days you'll find you cant keep your gold
you'll slip and fold without a foothold
I find myself reeling
can you see me feeling
your pain
in vain

Cards and Creeds

I put my hands on the table
I think I know what hand I've been dealt
But you know of what I'm capable
and even as I'm embittered you feel what I've felt

So I won't give up
I won't go close shut
I will lay these grievances
upon my heedlessness
and on them this one broken part
of a start when the sun swells up
and the start is just the beginning of enough
I won't give up
you are enough

I place my heart in the deck
It's a bit embered over
I can't recall the day I began my trek
I've tried everything from the spades to the clovers

But I have this one thing
its the wild card
I drop the game I've been playing
and places all my tally marks inside your scars


So I won't give up
I won't go close shut
I will lay these grievances
upon my heedlessness
and on them this one broken part
of a start when the sun swells up
and the start is just the beginning of enough
I won't give up
you are enough

Empty

I see you try again
turning your cheek to your friend
but they are your enemies
tongue and cheek you find no peace

I see you cry again
but no water falls from your face then
you have the face of a mountain
no longer the fountain of youth that your face boasts

Empty here
You're empty here
A cold dark room with no light
in close sight
you can't fight
you feel bitten
and bite off
but its smitten
How long can the cold hold you within
Empty here

I see you fly again
I see you crash in the end
It all its so empty and vain
You can't always brush off the pain
You havent found the cure
You're looking over your shoulder you're never sure
Who are your alibis
who are the gritty eyes
whose the sweet poision
who toys with your soul

Empty here
You're empty here
A cold dark room with no light
in close sight
you can't fight
you feel bitten
and bite off
but its smitten
How long can the cold hold you within
Empty here

But this is just a room
just four walls and a tune
call on the one
who calls up the sun
who made all life
and can make up for lost time
you dont have to be alone anymore
this room can come down to the floor
Just call and He'll come through and kick down your door
You won't let it go until hes rescued your soul

Are You Breathin

Floating
through an ocean
of endless sighs
Rolling
on the motion
of flightless skies

and we wonder how
and we wonder why
we can't see now
the depth of our crime

Are you breathin
are you alive this time
are you dreamin
are you awake tonight
your mind has faded
but the picture is still there
dont let the call be wasted
He has it all prepared
are you ready for air
for breathin

Youre in a cage in a dark alley
you have no alibi
In the distance you see the galley
they know your guilty this time
the bars will close on you forever
It will shut you down for good
is someone doesnt come and put you back together
and you dont anyone will, who would

Are you breathin
are you alive this time
are you dreamin
are you awake tonight
your mind has faded
but the picture is still there
dont let the call be wasted
He has it all prepared
are you ready for air
for breathin

He has a plan
he has a reason
this man
can save your life
save your soul

save your life
save your soul
don't give in
to the cold
save my life
save my soul
I am ready now to
let go

Are you breathin
are you alive this time
are you dreamin
are you awake tonight
your mind has faded
but the picture is still there
dont let the call be wasted
He has it all prepared
are you ready for air
for breathin

Scratch

We are the unmendable hearts
we are the ones who broke it
we are the broken parts
together were alone again

We are the unpredictable rebels
who bite the hands that heal us
we are the ungrateful devils
we never understand that we have enough

We are these fading paintings
these eroded statue souls
We are those who stand hating
Ourselves and our world and our holes
We are the scratch and biters
We are the angry fighters
We are the ones who hate the mirror
We break it cause without it our faces disappear

We are the robbers of ourselves
We are the ones who steal our homes
We are those who creep into dark realms
We are the lonely live-alones

We are afraid of who we are
We are more tired than we let on
We take our tounges too far
We can't sleep when the day is gone


We are these fading paintings
these eroded statue souls
We are those who stand hating
Ourselves and our world and our holes
We are the scratch and biters
We are the angry fighters
We are the ones who hate the mirror
We break it cause without it our faces disappear

Come and make us new
the dawn is almost here
night is just about through
You are the mirror
let us love the light
Come make yourself clear
That we may become right

What Am I Without You

I find myself back again
Finding what I lack again
Learning of myself again
Seeing I need help again

I can't win this war without you
You are the fire in the flame
I can't feel like myself
if I dont lose it all in you
I always break hard in two
I wake at the sound of your name
My knees are weak I need some help
What am I without you

Seeking out last hopes again
Befriending my last ropes again
Keeping my ashes hot again
Hoping to rekindle the spot again

I can't win this war without you
You are the fire in the flame
I can't feel like myself
if I dont lose it all in you
I always break hard in two
I wake at the sound of your name
My knees are weak I need some help
What am I without you

I Want You Here

My fingers just touch
my breath just breaths
My head is crushed
Between light beams

I want you here with me
I can't explain what I see
you are the maker of life
and the in between
I am a creator of strife
stuck in whispers and screams

My hands hang down
My soul streams sobs
My mouth is sound
While my heart throbs

I want you here with me
I can't explain what I see
you are the maker of life
and the in between
I am a creator of strife
stuck in whispers and screams

Meter and Rhyme

Why can't I find
a meter to match me
Im on the blind side
of my writing
human words
can only say
what they have heard
what have I heard anyway

what is the meter and rhyme
where has the time
gone
I cant find the way
to say what I say
in a a better way
so bear with me please
Im under the trees
looking at the sky
and I cant say why
but words escape me this time

I try too hard to write things down
maybe thats why I can feel down and out
they say write this way
make it better by saying
things that you dont mean
but it makes me want to scream
and I run away
I know is raw way
But it feels like who I am
I have jagged edges
I creep along ledges
always calculating how far I must fall
here comes the autumn fall

what is the meter and rhyme
where has the time
gone
I cant find the way
to say what I say
in a a better way
so bear with me please
Im under the trees
looking at the sky
and I cant say why
but words escape me this time

Steal Away

The clock is always movin
they say it stops for no man
The edifice always loomin
ticking by so when we die we're buried in sand

Time you are a thief
but you will not get the best of me
I want to use every moment for the best
the best of my life
will be filled up with time
I have to live with you, so fine
Every breath I breathe
I want to come from the deepest part of me
So steal away

You're such a busy man
moving clocks like no one understands
sneaking into our fortified homes
leaving us empty and cold
we get old
we get older
Thick smoke
You make us smolder

And every day has its own grievance against you
what can I say you steal our lives away
Every time procrastination is sorry too
what can I say time you are the thief of me

Time you are a thief
but you will not get the best of me
I want to use every moment for the best
the best of my life
will be filled up with time
I have to live with you, so fine
Every breath I breathe
I want to come from the deepest part of me
So steal away

Make every minute count
make that miser count himself out
Make every minute shout
Every second is a new day
steal away
steal away
go ahead
steal away

Rain

Rain is pounding on the street
my feet are flying at the same beat
I can't see, I can't see five feet in front of me
But I see, But I see the greater destiny

Lord I want to be like this rain
and you to be my atmosphere
I wanna be that close to you
No more meaningless show
I wanna be alive
permeate my skin
Heal me deep inside
Waken me within

I want you to be the part of me
that makes me who I am
I don't care if this song doesnt rhyme
it doesnt matter this time around
Lord this rain is falling hard on my street tonight
Lord hear my cry make me to fallback into you

You Don't Look Happy

you dont look happy
have you fallen asleep
it seems its all by route
knowing which rules to keep

No you don't look happy
you smoldered your fire
your desire to fight
whatever happened
to burning bright
dont settle for this fiction world
that is made of lies
return to your true love
and rest under his sky

You've turned to the trinket
and let go of the truth
you used to hold it so close
but now your losing room
because you gave your heart away
your in a crowd of crying souls
but your just asleep
and they are lost forever more

No you don't look happy
you smoldered your fire
your desire to fight
whatever happened
to burning bright
dont settle for this fiction world
that is made of lies
return to your true love
and rest under his sky

open your eyes
let go of the world
remember his love
rekindle the burn
don't be a parrot
who recites what he thinks is right
be a soldier
who lives to die for the fight

Don't Want to Wake Up Alone

Come on presence like wings
come rain the song that over me sings
Come heal the blue pain from gray hurricane's lonely stings
Fill up my weary heart
I've been broken from the start.

I've traveled far on this road
but I still have many miles to go
And this thought creeps in like cold
into a heart that wants you Lord
I don't ever want to wake up on this journey
alone

Come into my beat up house
sorry I haven't got much you know
but you say to me you prefer honesty over show
Fill up my weary heart
I've been broken from the start

I've traveled far on this road
but I still have many miles to go

And this thought creeps in like cold

into a heart that wants you Lord
I don't ever want to wake up on this journey
alone

Why My Eyes Look Tired

Is there any part of me
Is there anything left
Is there any spark in me
Is there anything remaining after theft

Lately I have been feeling old
like I've already lived a thousand lives
But maybe lately I haven't told
you my love what is on my mind

I am tired of the world
and the world is tired of me
the earth is unkind
and there's nothing left to see
people disappoint your heart
and tear it into broken parts
like this broken song I sing to you
I'm tired you see
Too tired to be
please revive me

Is there any good to see
Is there anything right
Is there any lark to sing
Is there anything light

Lately I have been feeling old
like I've already lived a thousand lives
But maybe lately I haven't told
you my love what is on my mind

I am tired of the world
and the world is tired of me
the earth is unkind
and there's nothing left to see
people disappoint your heart
and tear it into broken parts
like this broken song I sing to you
I'm tired you see
Too tired to be
please revive me

I'm worn out
I feel like an antique
Just put me on a shelf that no one sees
I'm torn down
I feel like a freak
Cause no one understands my wild demands
and my heart feels like lead as it sinks
I'm a discontented broken heart
All I am will fall apart
If you don't come in with strong arms
and carry me away from harm

This is why my eyes look tired...

Pulse

There is a song under the water
there is a song above the sky
there is a song deep inside her
but she can't place a reason why

There is a song under the ceiling
there is a song above the roof
there is a song that calls a feeling
he says that this song is his proof

Its the song of rhythm
the song of passion for our souls
its the pulse of your breathin
its the melody that starts when you make us whole
and we are your creation
breathless with anticipation
sing your song
sing of your love
sing it strong
under and above

There is a song under the night time
there is a song above the day
it is the reason and the rhyme
it keeps the timing of our praise

There is a song under our eyes
there is a song above our heads
Its the wonder of your skies
and the remedy of the dead

Its the song of rhythm
the song of passion for our souls
its the pulse of your breathin
its the melody that starts when you make us whole
and we are your creation
breathless with anticipation
sing your song
sing of your love
sing it strong
under and above

Popsicle

Popsicles on a summer day
little kids keep the heat away
they sit and laugh in the breezy shade
freeze tag is now the game
little muddy hands that God has made
little child don't forget these old ways

popsicles melt away
but you can keep them in your heart
popsicles can't always stay
but you can stay young please start
to stay strong now
little bare feet on the ground
this life will soon melt away
keep yourself back in the popsicle days

You may get older as all young do
You may get wiser on what you never wanted to
but just because the popsicles dissipate
that doesn't mean you have to keep those days away
there's a choice to stay young in your soul
there's a choice to get old yet still have popsicles to hold

Two Chance Alive

As the land line flattens against the horizon my heart ceases to beat
As the thick clouds settle like a dark song song my lungs cease to breath
And Without any ceremony
without anyone to console me
I fade away like a light in the night
White is black and black is white

No one else hopes for me now
I've given up and in but you save me somehow
Breathin through me
breathin to me
I am pale and white
you pull back the sheets
and shoot life through my veins
a cry rises from my placid lungs
what song have you sung
I am revived
two chance alive

You bring color skin
water to my lips
blood is moving within
I scrapped past deaths fingers of ice
Your all consuming and I'm alive
you only have made me to live
forever praise and glory I'll give
to you

This is the second life
two chance, two chance alive
This is the second life
two chance, two chance alive

Butterfly

Butterfly I saw your colors
Butterfly a delicate wonder
Butterfly don't fly away come and sun
yourself please stay
Butterfly please brighten up the day

Butterfly I know your wings are tired
I know that you feel conspired
against
I know one touch and you will break
You're not sure how much more you can take
But butterfly your wings can change the course of the wind
Butterfly though its less painful , don't give up, don't blend in

Butterfly open up your eyes
Butterfly look up at the sky
Butterfly it may be dark, it may be light
Butterfly have peace and hope inside
Butterfly know that love is in sight

Losses

All you want and all you need
are two very different things
Flying back in your face
are the memories that wont erase
A remembering mind can be a burden
you can't get stuck in thought you've gotta keep movin.

Its when you're still when your shot
losing blood you haven't got
to lose
hurt and confused
holding onto the wound
you cant lose your losses
you carry 'em like crosses
but this cross wasn't intended for your bearing
let go of all the stones that you're carrying

You've bottled up inside every thorny word,
every insult that has deeply hurt
you recount your pains like a miser counts gold
your eyes burn red and your heart grows cold

Its when you're still when your shot
losing blood you haven't got
to lose
hurt and confused
holding onto the wound
you cant lose your losses
you carry 'em like crosses
but this cross wasn't intended for your bearing
let go of all the stones that you're carrying

Arrows fly like shards of glass
memories from the painful past
give your sorrow to the king
rest you head as he sings

Only Money Love

Nothing but a sea of green
Pockets splitting at the seam
You're bank book's full
but you're feeling dull
have you gone and sold your soul

They tell us only money love
Only money and its never enough
you can only buy love with money
they say you can't get by with just loving
But everyone is empty and used up
Only money-love
only money, love.

Just sit there and put on your pretty face
you're handsome so you'll bring good pay
Work until you can't sweat a drop more
and realize all the creditors are at your door
Even if you make all the paper you ever wanted
You find your heart raw and so blood red

They tell us only money love
Only money and its never enough
you can only buy love with money
they say you can't get by with just loving
But everyone is empty and used up
Only money-love
only money, love.

Is this all there is
they tell us its so
is this how to live
Savior erase the green from our souls
Make the nations white as snow
this is not all there is to live for
You came to give us true riches and so much more

Surge Of Joy

Striking through the streaking rain
I feel it coming through again
Like a curtain rending in my heart
from the sky light comes and falls

And its here for just a breath
this fire in my soul
my eyes widen with every step
its the feeling that I am whole
I could almost reach out and touch my makers hand
I could almost smell the taste feel Heavenly land
Its running through my head to my fingertips
the wind and cold wont leave me old though they breath an icy kiss
The breath swells in my head and words seem an alloy
running through my soul and my frame is a surge of joy

The bare bones of the world reach out there arms to me
the warm hope has been heard and all this I see
rain drives in my face
I have to keep up this furious pace
the wind holds the breath
and the the breath holds the glow
there is a depth on the moment only I know

And its here for just a breath
this fire in my soul
my eyes widen with every step
its the feeling that I am whole
I could almost reach out and touch my makers hand
I could almost smell the taste feel Heavenly land
Its running through my head to my fingertips
the wind and cold wont leave me old though they breath an icy kiss
The breath swells in my head and words seem an alloy
running through my soul and my frame is a surge of joy

It Was Me

I'm all by myself
Yet again
They left me to sell
For riches, some friends

I tried greed
but he robbed me
I tried love
but she wasnt enough
I tried to leave
my thoughts of grief
but somehow they always taunt me
They come back like shadows to haunt me

Is there no honesty
I know that you promised me
You said you'd never leave my side
But I can't find the truth
and I'm not close to you
I'm finally wondering why
Why did you leave me
to weep in the dust
You let them beat me
Is there no one to trust?
Then I look at the friends that I've made
I set out to find truth
but wound up on on a useless crusade
I don't need any more proof
I'm all used up and I know for sure
I can see
It was me

I tried riches on for size
but they left green stains on my eyes
I tried solitude
but it was empty without you
I tried the crowd
But found the silence too loud
Nothing is any good without you
I know it might be too much to ask
But its proved I cant live without you
Would you please make a place
where honesty floods my face
I know its a lot to ask
Be my heart patch,
please bring me back

Is there no honesty
I know that you promised me
You said you'd never leave my side
But I can't find the truth
and I'm not close to you
I'm finally wondering why
Why did you leave me
to weep in the dust
You let them beat me
Is there no one to trust?
Then I look at the friends that I've made
I set out to find truth
but wound up on on a useless crusade
I don't need any more proof
I'm all used up and I know for sure
I can see
It was me

You died on the tree
all because of us and me
I can see
your beauty
my depravity
Let known this be,
It was me

Cold

Alone
on my own
So cold
Why do I cry
Where will I fall tonight

I guess I walked too far
I guess I missed the star
Coming back from the dead
Your voice in my head
Saying dont let go

Alone
On my own
this place is cold
Why do I try
I always find myself failing at night

I guess I missed the mark
I guess Im living stark
Come crashing through my senses
Cause I can be so senseless
Im gonna try again tonight

But I know I need help
I can't do this myself
I hold on if you hold to me
You made a promise that I wont be alone

So I guess I'll keep trying
Cause I love you
I guess I'll keep crying
Cause I know I fall through
But you'll catch me cause you
Always follow through

Rise Above

I get so caught up in what I see
Its not that I doubt you are there
But I can only see the reflection of me
I feel myself sinking under
(Don't let me go asunder)
I feel myself falling down below

But you whisper strength to my soul
I hear it over the static of the radio

I will rise above
you will be enough
I've never felt such a love
And I know without a doubt
Give me a reason to shout
I will rise above

You are the reason to fight
the reason to try
the reason I can go on tonight


Don't let me go asunder
I feel myself falling down below

But you whisper strength to my soul
I hear it over the static of the radio

I will rise above
you will be enough
I've never felt such a love
And I know without a doubt
Give me a reason to shout
I will rise above

Paint

Just another rain drop
in an ocean of puddles
Just another question
in a sea of muddles
Just another day in my life
Just another moment slice

And your with me through every one
you've seen every meadow and prison
and you love me more than I can fathom
You're happy to sit with me as I imagine
I think of heaven and all its streets
and you show me how to love everyone I meet
Dearest Love you are so good to me
My sweet maker you know every inch of my frame
And the canvas you make beautiful as you paint

Just another tear
in a world so broken down
Just another laugh
In a whirlwind of sound
Just another pause
in a blur of motion
Just another wish
in such crazy commotion

And your with me through every one
you've seen every meadow and prison
and you love me more than I can fathom
You're happy to sit with me as I imagine
I think of heaven and all its streets
and you show me how to love everyone I meet
Dearest Love you are so good to me
My sweet maker you know every inch of my frame
And the canvas you make beautiful as you paint

Bind Me

I look around
I can't place where I stand
I want to be found
I don't know where I am
Oh where are you I call
Why did I have to fall
Why did I think I could go my own way
Wont you please I know I dont deserve it
wont you please I know I could never earn it
I know you've done this a thousand times before
But would you save me?

Then take this wayward heart and bind it to your arms
take my broken heart and tie it to your scars
there is nothing that I fear more than my own heart
I need you to hold me so close dear morning star
Hold me until my fit has left me and I callapse into your arms
and I breath again and I rest, dear Lord I've wandered so far
please bind me to your arms

Bind me to your arms with the strongest cord
Bind me to your arms I give up on my own
Bind me to your arms where you hold your word and sword
Bind me to your arms Im so tired of being alone
Bind me with your love that sets me free
In your arms theres no place I'd rather be
So why do I forget and leave your arms
for all of the worlds trinkets and charms
Bind me to your arms Father I beg you
Bind me to your arms

Summer Smile

The earth is weather worn
my soul is so war torn
my mind feels like a ransacked town
with every building burned black to the ground

I feel like a salesman at dinner
not a single call a winner
I haven't had a smile since
the whole world went and made me wince
and that was quite awhile ago
so I guess Im here to let you know

I need your rest in my soul
cause I feel so restless everywhere I go
I've tried to fit the pieces but its outta my control
I've tried to fill the creases but this wall is gonna blow
Please bring your summer smile on my winter street then let it go

I think I need a new song
been crooning discontentment too long
ice streaks freeze upon my face
I've got a broken go-cart in this race
Its time I let loose and fall down
Its time you come in an erase my furrowed brow

I need your rest in my soul
cause I feel so restless everywhere I go
I've tried to fit the pieces but its outta my control
I've tried to fill the creases but this wall is gonna blow
Please bring your summer smile on my winter street then let it go

Come Save me Now

Lord make this restless wanderer to rest
upon the rock of enduring faithfulness
cause I've been through a storm
and I'm feeling so alone
and I've tried to fight it out
but my hearts filled with dark doubt
its blacking out
come save me know

Lord make this running runner to stop
from trying to run from the drop
cause its ok to fall
because your bigger than them all
and I know that from experience
with a heart so numb and delirous
I need to fall straight in your hand I'm coming down
its blacking out
come save me now

Lord make this sobbing pulse to cease
and simply fill my blood with your peace
cause my eyes have turned pale
and all my battles fail
but your stronger with just your hands
than I could ever muster in my lands
I'll sing it out
Its blacking out
but I'm burning out
I know you'll save me now

My Life And Death Anthem

This song is floating over the keyboard of my heart
the notes are playing and begin fading as quickly as they start
I have to write this down before too long
I have to try to save this breath before its used and gone

I remember this song,
I mark it well,
its all the things I can't buy or sell.
I remember this song,
like the holiday,
of all the things that human words cant say
Its the grateful song for the will to make us survive
Its all the words that can't describe
just how it feels to die and be alive.

I feel your heartbeat under the earth
I know your gaze penetrating hurt
Floating on one moment when I gaze down at my hands
and for one moment Im gone and I marvel at your plans
Its here so brief I can only breath and its to my grief yet I sigh relief

In the Eye

In the middle of a hurricane
Walking the streets in the pouring rain
Spinning out starspeed Im going insane
Feel pounding pain
in my heart
but then you stop and start

In the eye of the storm you stop the whole world
In the rage, ripped and torn you make my stand sure
what is this peace I find?
Its not ever in the place of my mind
In the middle of my hurricane
in exposure to driving rain
you hear my cry unheard
in the eye of the storm you stop the whole world.

You come running to me
ready for battle with the cavalry
You wont give up till you've won me back
you wont give me over to inside black
You see the storm
and you cease its form
you find the eye
and rise me up high
you stop me in the midst of the chaos
I hold my breath as you take us
away

Space

Space

Floating

In our space of fragility

We can not see past the blue den

The bright star burns our eyes

The change sizzles in our pockets

And makes us slaves

Diamond chains float away in gravity's absence

This is freedom

Our call for peace

Our chance

Inscribed

Concentric

chords

All Away

Its coming up
its going down
life is not enough
to stop the sound
Its coming through
its getting clear
and my whole life
is chasing tears
nothing truly new
until you call my name
and I answer you
you sing the sky's refrain

All Away
come up to me
this is where you belong
I'll sing sweetly
I'll mend the glass
that holds you back
that cuts your feet
as you crawl to me
I'm carrying you away
All Away

I've cried too long
on the battlefield beneath me
I found I'm not strong
like I wanted to be
But you call me up
just when I give up
and thats enough to save this aching heart
Please dont let me go just keep me in your arms

When it comes down
dont break it
when it falls down
dont hate it
Cause its not enough to ignore the pain
and say your strong when you feel the strain
you have to give up and die to yourself
if you ever want to rise up and be well

lowercase i

the storm is coming
will i be strong enough
the storm is running
its gonna cut through all this stuff
the storm is pounding down the halls
is it the end or is this a bluff
the storm is raging through the walls
its crashing through the celing
and i can hear my soul screaming

then i hear the echo
reverberating the canyon of my heart
telling me to let go
and breath in the disaster let it smart
cause its the start of something new
its gonna run the old ways through
and im outta control
its not in my hands
i've learned this before
but now i understand
im just the lowercase i
and your the capital G
your the hands that hold the sky
and im just the raindrop on a leaf

Glass Heart

I used to be so idealistic
but now my heart is hard and twisted
I feel like I went and missed it
whatever happened to my soul
I used to be open and untainted
but my heart became refrigerated
I wound up cynical and jaded
whatever made this empty hole

I can't hold my own heart together
whatever made me think I could change the world
Father hold my broken glass heart forever
Whatever made me want to change the world
I can only make the best of whats mine
Whatever made me think I could change the world
I can only make the best of my own life

And this life that I'm living can't be mine
Not if I want to live
So I'm giving up this time
Take the harshness of my heart
and melt it down to run like rain
let the heavy lead run soft down my face
like a tear stain
Let this world not be mine
I'm a torn up mess from my bitter crime
Say "your mine" say Im fine
Say "your mine" say Im fine

40 million miles away

I look down at my hands and feet
I've felt this way but don't understand
I began to lose my sight of the street
And I saw-felt for a flash my homeland

Somewhere 40 million miles away
I float on this breath I can't breath in
I missed the inhale but drank up the day
This is a battle of knowledge I can't win
But more than 40 million miles away
is the desert of more than forty years ago
And someday I'll pass through the gates
despite how little I know

Im out of mind but I'm in his heart
I won't worry about my breathing
I know so little but I feel this is the start
Of my reassured new beginning

Peace in the Unpieceable

Slowing down
for just a moment
lets hold it
lets unfold it
take the stillness from the sky
and let it sink into our soul through our eyes

Fall on my soul like life water
Let me find stability even as I falter
Cause this world wont slow down for me
and its only when I look past the business that I see
there is peace even in the darkest place
if I find the light beam that falls from your face

Common ground
is hard to find
they run and hide
no peace inside
can we find peace in this restlessness
can we find joy in this hopelessness

Fall on my soul like life water
Let me find stability even as I falter
Cause this world wont slow down for me
and its only when I look past the business that I see
there is peace even in the darkest place
if I find the light beam that falls from your face

Even in these dingy halls
even in the marred scarred walls
Even in these places there is life
Even in these broken hearts
Even when the dark cracks the start
of the new way and new sound
there is life
in your light
were alright

Cover My Mouth

Why are the nations falling
Why is youth failing
Why are they calling
Why are we nailing
the sins of our souls to the blaze of a fire,
and promise not to look because we dont want to see.
Whatever happened to the longing desire
to see the captives set free.

We cover our mouths
We wont make a sound
though people around
bleed and die out
and fall to the ground
unheard and unsound
because we cover our mouths

If we have the truth why dont we speak
What do we have to lose
theres nothing to keep
If nothing this proves
that we are weak
and I need someone
to undo the loser in me

You Say You Want To Live In a Modern World?

We've got every kind of button and gadget,
but boy have I had it,
up to here
We've got every kind of flashing light,
No one sees tonight
no one hears.
And no one cares,
no no one seems to care

You say you want to live in a modern world,
well welcome to our facade parade
Did you want to live lonely, join the band
did you want to live hard without a stand
You say you want to live in a modern world
Did you want to live only in a screen, live like this if you can
but the modern makes me want to scream

Do you want to live in a world of crumbling concrete
where no one looks in each others eyes as they walk the street
theres mistrust on every side,
we've run to the dark and abandoned the Light
I'd give anything to get rid of the modern life.

FreakOut

I realize Im in the spotlight
Is this the first time
Am I waking up
Or breaking up
Its getting hard to tell
Am I coming out of my shell
Or am I leaving peace and security
for doubt
Is it a new dawn of revelation or a
FreakOut
A FreakOut!

Cause my pulse is pounding in my ears
I can't count up my fears
they're creeping out
Hear my shout
I feel like I'm of control
whatever made me feel whole
My breathless heartbeat
Is wandering the street
Wont you come back to me
Its not supposed to be like this now
Is this my FreakOut!

Whatever made me feel whole
What is this hole in my soul
Why is my head spinning out of control
The songs wont come
I am undone

Have I forgotten
That I'm not the one who holds gravity down
I'm not the one who put breath in my mouth
Do I have any good reason to despair like this now
Do I have any good reason to FreakOut?

Cause my pulse is pounding in my ears
I can't count up my fears
they're creeping out
Hear my shout
I feel like I'm out of control
whatever made me feel whole
My breathless heartbeat
Is wandering the street
Wont you come back to me
Its not supposed to be like this now
Is this my FreakOut!
This is my FreakOut!
Its been my FreakOut!
But its Over now...

A Rainy Day

Air becomes a cold whisper that creeps up into the fabric of your clothes and numbs your fingers. Wind comes like a sequel to the cold undertone, stirring up Air for what is to come.

Dried up leaves skip and swirl across the ground and into Air, then dive back down and dissolve into crinkly noises. Clouds come in like a patchwork quilt across the sky, until it is a single color of gray-blue-white with a soft cold gloss.

Greens and browns become brighter and darker, their rich warmth overcoming the cold. A few icy drops fall from the sky and splash into the cracks of gray pavement. More come down on earth, falling like hundreds of liquid comets. They splash onto the ground and dance on everything they touch, slipping and soaking into clothes, skin and eyelashes.

Harder and harder they pound, trying to break through to the warm center of earth. Grass sparkles like a field of diamonds on emerald turf. Like a sigh the sky draws its breath and mist unravels from the liquid sky. Earth is soaked to the bones. Air is clear cold and fresh.

Attidude of Worship

Let this freeway sing your praises tonight
Let the red lights remind me of your might
Let the hum and sigh of the road be a song unto your ears
Let your hands reach down to wipe away my tears
and all my fears
and all the years
I will let go  and you will purge it
Its my attitude of worship

Let the lights fade from my head
Let me rest on all you've said
Let my feet be set on your solid rock
Let my heart not fear what I havent got
Let the flashing lights and shouts be only unto you
Let me be amazed through what humility can do
Let your hands reach down to wipe away my tears
and all my fears
and all the years
I will let go and you will purge it
Its my attidude of worship

Let it all be only for you
All that I ever say and do
Let this stage be an alter
Let not my faint heart falter
May all the sounds of my life bless those who've heard it
An attitude of worship
Its the attidude of worship
Keep the attiitude of worship
May I have the attidude of worship

Complete

I know that you wont give me more than I can take
You know just how much before I break
I trust the promise, you wont let go,
and you'll make me white as snow

What you started you will complete
You've been making something out of me
Not quite sure what it is yet,
but Im holding out to see what comes next
I'm holding onto your promise
you said you wont let go
You've been changing this novice
and you'll completely make me whole

You know how very human I am
You just how much and how long I can stand
You were there when I took my first step
And you'll be with me when I breath my last breath
I trust the promise you wont let go
and you'll make me white as snow

I Can't Write This Away

Watching life in the mirror,
my fingers unable to reach through the glass
All that I held so dear
Is slipping through the strainer from future to past
and I'm a writer so I'll write my thoughts
and try to escape the scrape I just got
but this thought scares me

cause I cant write this away
this one stays,
like a stain on my face
I can't wear it out
and it wears me down
does time ever run out of time
to push me past the line
of insanity how it laughs at me

And no matter how hard I try to pen it down
my thoughts float to the ground
like a vapor
theres no paper
to hold these thoughts
I cant write this away

The Horizan is Black

Lucy's thoughts as the Dawn Treader sails through to the Dark Island

Madness is all around me,
and chaos tries to quench my wonder,
but your love is all around me,
and I wont go under.

Invisible arrows almost pierce my mind,
my body has long been weary,
but you hold me inside,
your arms,
your hands,
are stronger,
than my own,
Even in this darkness, Im not alone.

You are where you are,
even when the heavens are thrown down,
When the battles and storms rage
and my spirit reaches dark ground,
you are holding me together,
and I will not fall apart,
and you will not leave me, never
You formed and love and hold my heart

Invisible dark doubt almost pierces my mind,
my mind has long been weary,
but you hold me inside,
your arms,
your hands,
are stronger,
than my own,
Even in this darkness, Im not alone.

Even in the choking darkness that surrounds me,
I will not let go of the promise,
you said you would always be with me,
and I know this, oh I know this,
you keep your word and your arms
your hands,
are stronger than my own constitution,
even in darkness, I'm never alone

Clean Cut Side

Running your finger on a jagged edge
remembering all the times you pledged
your heart away
is there a better way
well theres a side
where theres true life
But I gotta tell you
its not easy
I gotta prepare you
From the clean cut hear me


On the clean cut side there is blood
you have to decide do you want lies or love
on the clean cut side there is blood
you have to decide is this world enough

Its not easy waring like this
this isn't the first time we've felt the enemies fist
and it wont be the last time
until its the last time
and we'll hear that glorious voice
saying you made the right choice
and the war is over
come up here
come over

Fading In

Tuning into your frequency,
I need your voice to come in clear,
Its the only thing that keeps me ready,
Its the only thing that can't disapear.

So why do I turn it off,
try to shut it down,
and waste my time running around
like a foolish person,
well I guess its cause I am one.
I need you in spite of
despite of my efforts to drown you out,
please come back around,
I need you again,
come back in,
I hear you fading in.

I know I can be stubborn and full of myself,
I dont know what Im doing, I could use some help.
When I think I've got a clear signal it starts breaking up,
Im breaking up,
from the inside out,
Im falling down,
please dont fade out,
come fading in,
I need your sound,
Im breaking, spinning out

Im Alone

Sitting in the sun,
listenin to the wind.
Not much has begun,
and Im Alone Again.

I've got a story for you
its kinda sad but its the truth
Its my joyful story about who
I spend most of my time with these days,
Cause I find more time is slipping away,

And Im alone,
again,
with my very best friend,
yeah Im alone, again
And I dont mind theres no hand to hold,
its best if you leave life with unfolded hands
You've got nothing left, thats when you get hope,
and Im alone
again.

The cold breeze doesnt bother me,
I'm sitting with the song birds outside,
It doesnt matter that Im cold and alone
it really isnt the first time
I am happier this way,
and Im ok,
cause human happiness isnt worth much anyway

To tell you the truth his scars are my company
your cars and money dont make you fancy free
and you envy me
cause theres something you see
that you dont got inside yourself
dont turn over in your grave, just turn over yourself

Criminal Prints

I am my own tragedy,
I am my bitter calamity,
I am a living soul,
A dying body on parole,
Yeah a dying body on parole.

I'm the criminal,
I've got blood on my house and hands,
I've given up the holy vigil,
assembled a mansion of shifting sand,
pretty to behold with the eye,
until you went and looked inside,
and the inside was just the shack of a criminal,
with dirty fingerprints everywhere.

How can you escape the ghost of yourself,
A living soul in a dying shell.
What do you do when you havent been doing what you're supposed to?
Who can erase the fingerprints,
who can tear down the wall and split apart,
the living and the dead in your heart.
Who can keep us alive,
where is the breath of life,
can he cure the predictable,
and wash the hands of a criminal

Run to the River

Exhausted and breaking,
My very bones aching,
I need some relief from this life
I open my eyes,
where the streams have run dry
There is a river shining like night skies.

And though my body is weary
and my eyes are bloodshot red
I lift myself from the dirt,
and wipe away the tears I've shed

And I run to the river,
I run to its arms,
the blood stains in my garments run
into the blue vein and come undone,
I run to the river,
My aching body floats
like a weightless breath of air
You quench my thirst, and I know youre there
The last heat mirages shiver,
when I run to the river

Its my last day I know
I feel it in my bones,
I am tired and alone,
Oh Lord have you left your throne
The wells are all dried up,
I've been hung out and cried up,
but I crawl over the last hill
and see it still,

Pick up my dirty feet,
My hands are cracked and dry,
I've been running through hot streets,
Everyone says I'm gonna die,
I running on my last breath,
Im gonna take my last step,
Run to the river,
you are my river,
Soak through my skin,
Come thick and thin,
Wash away my sin,
Im a sinner,
So I'll run to the river

I'm Still Fighting

I groan inside
My soul is weary
Theres no life
Within this city
It feels like
I'm breathing to a brick wall
They cant hear a thing at all

And I wonder,
is this fight for me
Is this life really worth living
But you fight for me,
so I'll fight for them
Back to the wars again
I won't give up till you give the cry
And all will see and hear why
you are God
But right now I'm still fighting

And I war with myself
and my own blind ambition
I dont listen well
Feels like another numb rendition
But I'm still fighting
I'm still crying
They're still dying,
thats why I'm fighting

Embered Paper

My eyes are burning out
like paper that won't burn up
And I am staring down,
All that you are made of.

You cant do this on your own
Cant fight your battles alone
Cause this world will drive you cold
And chill you to the bone

I'll be the eyes burning bright
Like a piece of embered paper in the night
Clear the smoke screen
whats inside
All you are and could be
will divide
Catch the fire youre just scrap paper in the wind,
But you could be burning out so hold on tight
Like a piece of embered paper in the night.

Embered paper
edges red
You remember yourself
when you are his again
Embered paper
burning bright
can't fight for yourself
give up your life
Embered paper
Embered paper
scraps held by the savior
Burn out like embered paper

Colors of Confusion

A disrupted symphony
The skip of a heartbeat
Confusion has made its home in me

This is my attempt to see
why I always crash to pieces
on the freeway of cold and empty

I wanna be there
my feet are firmly planted here
all that I think I want disappears
why can't I move, move past delusions
my instruments of warped illusions
I wear the colors of confusion

Nothing makes sense to me at all
where is the sense in emptiness and free for all
why must I wear these colors

Is the belief, the truth, the one, the truly discovered
The hope, the out, the new life uncovered,
The fight to fight, the love unlike any other,
Will you come and make me yours
give me your colors

The Song In My Lungs

I breath it in but I cant breath it out.
It fills up my throat with a silent shout.
I cant put into words what my heart has heard.
Without wings it attempts to fly,
A falling tear without a cry.

Its the note that rises from the sunrise
seeps into my bones, I know Im not alone.
Its the word that makes the Darkness flee,
Its the hope of where I'll someday be,
the tune that cant be sang with tongues
Its the song from my lungs.

Its not my own its from the throne room,
but its all my own when I'm with you alone,
its the strong song that carries me when all is wrong,
And the nights seem long,
and blood runs black,
this burning song comes back to me straight from your heart,
and I find myself resting in your arms,
you are my song, the song in my lungs
what is this song, when I come undone,
its the song in my lungs

Upside Down

Like the song running through the trees,
is the heartbeat blood in me.
Like the rain that falls on earth,
is the wondering that stirs.
These thoughts the well in me.
You are my dwelling.
Feelings wont pen down.
My feet are off the ground.

Im upside down, for whats today
I'll slowly give myself away
This is what life is to be alive
Some others say to hold on tight
I've let go of everything
I'm tumbling on your breeze
Hear the sigh inside of me
Im close and far away
Turn this moment to a day

Letting go from the branches I hold on to
Opening myself to pain raw and new
Wont let myself grow old
Wont let my soul get clammy and cold
I will not be dead today
you found me alive this way
And upside down.

My Defense

Weakened by drought and falling faster than a comet.
Beaten by disaster and fumbling through the steps.
Nothing much to see, not what I hoped to be.
But its what your doing, I am becoming me.

Take up my defense,
I haven't got enough strength left.
I'm digging my heels in the ground,
and my river and wells run dry.
My hearts too weary to pound,
Is this how you want me to die,
Is this how how I should live my life.
What are you doing,
Slowly becoming me.

Please take up my defense,
I haven't got it yet.
I forgot the words to say,
Can't remember how I got this way.
What am I supposed to do.
I'll give it up and trust in you,
if your arms are strong enough to hold the world,
you can hold my heart, life and universe.

Nothing But You

I've seen so much of Sorrows wake.
I've swam in oceans of tears for deaths sake.
I've scaled the mountains of disaster,
I've spun out of control could'nt go any faster.

What is left of me, theres nothing left of me.
Theres nothing left in this world.
Theres nothing left to see, theres nothing I can bring,
My eyes shut my fingers curled,
My question, what left me stirred.
No other human to trust, no other love left to trust,
no happiness, only madness,
Then I breath you in, and you heal me all over again.

Another show to put on,
One more night, gotta hold on.
We slip in the rain,
and we slip, crash, feel pain.
What do I have left to show,
What do I want them to know.
I can't just let go,
but I'm losing control,
there is nothing left in my soul

Gotta breath you in in the quiet,
Feel you in even the riot,
Hold you peace hold it inside it.
Gotta take you into my day
Feel your peace when I'm not ok,
Hold on to your every word, yeah every word you say

Reach

Stretching my hands up to the sky,
like a child looking in your eyes.
Today you found me wakin up
Again.
I remembered true love my friend.

And I reached my hands to the sunset,
I'm reaching up past what my eyes can see,
I'm reaching for what no ones seen yet,
I'm stretching myself to see what you can make of me,
I know what you can do, and I only know myself when Im with you,
So like a child I am free,
To sing
To You.

I'm comforted only by your love,
when I see the shore, I know its me you're thinking of.
I'm amazed by the structure of the cross in the chaos,
I am fazed by your grace when you see just what I'm made of.

Unraveled

I hate these thoughts,
despise my own admissions,
Disdain my lots,
Bitter towards regretful commissions.

What have I done here, Im so messed up,
Why do I still fear, as if your'e not enough
why do I dive in, when I know I'll only break my neck,
like I havent done that yet, so much that I regret, when I'm lyin in bed,
so many thoughts fill my head, and I come unraveled. Hem me in, above and below,
behind and before, Im disheveled and unraveled.

I can't stand myself,
or bear my own reflection,
I know that I really need some help,
Im just so stuck up to correction,
pride is an addiction,
pride is an affliction,
Pride is broken shins,
on cracked pavement,
Where do I lose myself,
to find to it,
where to I erase my life
to define it.

Class LYA

The bell rings, class begins.
At least I didn't fail, though I didn't do so well.
Back to my desk, the one thats pencil scratched.
The one thats worn with holes, stuck with gum to make it full.
Graphite on my hands and face, writing at a heart bursting pace
Haven't I been here before,
I guess I have to learn more.

Im the Graduating Class of the Last Year Alive.
Trying it over and over till I get it right.
Haven't we touched on this subject before, how much more,
is there to entropy, and gravity and humanity, and your love for me,
and the change in I see, and the way to be, and being clean, and becoming free//
Can't wait until the day when I cross the stage in this stage of life,
Im in the Graduating Class of the Last Year Alive.

In your patient you teach me the same thing over and over and over again,
You have been the greatest Teacher, and mentor, and father and friend.
And I can't wait to thank you as you place the diploma in my hand,
I'll throw it down at your feet, and bask in what I don't understand.

Graduating Class LYA, we only have until our last day,
learn what you can and stay in his hand, cause we only have today,
Graduating Class LYA, we only have until our last day,
If you don't know it all, it'll all be ok,
Graduating Class LYA, we only have this day to be alive,
Learn from his heart, put your hopes inside.
Graduating Class LYA this could be our last day alright.

Oak Tree

I don't know why it is, but its true,
can't keep my heart from falling through.
It reaches out over the edge
and falls away.
And so many times you call my name,
and I sometimes think that I'm insane,
But I'll just bet,
You find someway to save me.

Im back in the backyard of hopeless dreams,
yes I'm a dreamer, I just close my eyes and see.
But sometimes I can't block out the screams,
So you remind me of the sweet reality,
and you find me falling out of the oak tree.

Falling out can be a beautiful thing
until my feet smash on the ground,
Some tell me to tie up a swing,
but then you wouldn't feel the sound,
you have to be ok with falling down.

Im falling out, and falling down,
can't wait for the day when I'm safe and sound,
and I will light from the oak tree,
falling and flying safely as can be.

Life's Anthem

In deep thought,
everyone's searching,
for what they want.
And everyone's longing for an anthem
for life
an anthem for when you rise,
to sing yourself to sleep at night.
Searching and hoping and skimming through songs,
Is it the one I've been looking for
the note that stays where I belong.

Give me my life's anthem a song
of love, hope, and faithfulness,
the tragedy and broken mess,
and then some mixed into one,
beautiful tune.
Give me my life's anthem,
the one for me that's true.

The reason for life,
the driver on the road,
the explanation for death, devastation, wrong and right
And what goes beyond,
yeah give me that song,
the one from deepest memories,
to rid the mess inside of me,
this love, death and war inside

By me and my sister, Roozie Roo

Eagle Eyes

More Lights,
Late nights,
Rock fights,
Good times,
Hard times,
Tonight,
Alright.

Tonight was another night,
stars shone with all their might,
But although they blazed bright,
Even their light,
couldn't stand up to mans street light.
Most of the time I love the light,
the flashes of white,
the colors of heat
Fused with a drum beat.
Most of the time,
My heart hangs in rhyme,
But something snapped the string,
and my heart sank to my feet.

Tonight was a night when the light hurt my eyes
and tears blurred my vision and I lost my precision of sight
and the stage felt like a prison and the lights burned out my mission
The reason I fight, the whole world crashed tonight, like the Great Depression,
Loss is my new obsession, but through the blur of watery lights, I looked up and
I thought I saw your eyes, what might be your eyes, get me through tonight.

I sang a few songs,
I sang a new song,
and you held my heart still,
and quiet,
and no chill,
no throbbing riot,
I had new will,
no pain inside it.

I found I had eagles eyes,
and could look at the light,
With new strength to fight,
The lights no longer my blight,
Your new song gave me hope for tonight.

More Lights,
Late nights,
Rock fights,
Good times,
Hard times,
Tonight,
Alright.
So bright,
Goodnight,
Camera time,
please sign,
long line,
hold time,
keep time,
under light,
Tonight,
Alright.