Are You Breathin

Floating
through an ocean
of endless sighs
Rolling
on the motion
of flightless skies

and we wonder how
and we wonder why
we can't see now
the depth of our crime

Are you breathin
are you alive this time
are you dreamin
are you awake tonight
your mind has faded
but the picture is still there
dont let the call be wasted
He has it all prepared
are you ready for air
for breathin

Youre in a cage in a dark alley
you have no alibi
In the distance you see the galley
they know your guilty this time
the bars will close on you forever
It will shut you down for good
is someone doesnt come and put you back together
and you dont anyone will, who would

Are you breathin
are you alive this time
are you dreamin
are you awake tonight
your mind has faded
but the picture is still there
dont let the call be wasted
He has it all prepared
are you ready for air
for breathin

He has a plan
he has a reason
this man
can save your life
save your soul

save your life
save your soul
don't give in
to the cold
save my life
save my soul
I am ready now to
let go

Are you breathin
are you alive this time
are you dreamin
are you awake tonight
your mind has faded
but the picture is still there
dont let the call be wasted
He has it all prepared
are you ready for air
for breathin

Scratch

We are the unmendable hearts
we are the ones who broke it
we are the broken parts
together were alone again

We are the unpredictable rebels
who bite the hands that heal us
we are the ungrateful devils
we never understand that we have enough

We are these fading paintings
these eroded statue souls
We are those who stand hating
Ourselves and our world and our holes
We are the scratch and biters
We are the angry fighters
We are the ones who hate the mirror
We break it cause without it our faces disappear

We are the robbers of ourselves
We are the ones who steal our homes
We are those who creep into dark realms
We are the lonely live-alones

We are afraid of who we are
We are more tired than we let on
We take our tounges too far
We can't sleep when the day is gone


We are these fading paintings
these eroded statue souls
We are those who stand hating
Ourselves and our world and our holes
We are the scratch and biters
We are the angry fighters
We are the ones who hate the mirror
We break it cause without it our faces disappear

Come and make us new
the dawn is almost here
night is just about through
You are the mirror
let us love the light
Come make yourself clear
That we may become right

What Am I Without You

I find myself back again
Finding what I lack again
Learning of myself again
Seeing I need help again

I can't win this war without you
You are the fire in the flame
I can't feel like myself
if I dont lose it all in you
I always break hard in two
I wake at the sound of your name
My knees are weak I need some help
What am I without you

Seeking out last hopes again
Befriending my last ropes again
Keeping my ashes hot again
Hoping to rekindle the spot again

I can't win this war without you
You are the fire in the flame
I can't feel like myself
if I dont lose it all in you
I always break hard in two
I wake at the sound of your name
My knees are weak I need some help
What am I without you

I Want You Here

My fingers just touch
my breath just breaths
My head is crushed
Between light beams

I want you here with me
I can't explain what I see
you are the maker of life
and the in between
I am a creator of strife
stuck in whispers and screams

My hands hang down
My soul streams sobs
My mouth is sound
While my heart throbs

I want you here with me
I can't explain what I see
you are the maker of life
and the in between
I am a creator of strife
stuck in whispers and screams

Meter and Rhyme

Why can't I find
a meter to match me
Im on the blind side
of my writing
human words
can only say
what they have heard
what have I heard anyway

what is the meter and rhyme
where has the time
gone
I cant find the way
to say what I say
in a a better way
so bear with me please
Im under the trees
looking at the sky
and I cant say why
but words escape me this time

I try too hard to write things down
maybe thats why I can feel down and out
they say write this way
make it better by saying
things that you dont mean
but it makes me want to scream
and I run away
I know is raw way
But it feels like who I am
I have jagged edges
I creep along ledges
always calculating how far I must fall
here comes the autumn fall

what is the meter and rhyme
where has the time
gone
I cant find the way
to say what I say
in a a better way
so bear with me please
Im under the trees
looking at the sky
and I cant say why
but words escape me this time

Steal Away

The clock is always movin
they say it stops for no man
The edifice always loomin
ticking by so when we die we're buried in sand

Time you are a thief
but you will not get the best of me
I want to use every moment for the best
the best of my life
will be filled up with time
I have to live with you, so fine
Every breath I breathe
I want to come from the deepest part of me
So steal away

You're such a busy man
moving clocks like no one understands
sneaking into our fortified homes
leaving us empty and cold
we get old
we get older
Thick smoke
You make us smolder

And every day has its own grievance against you
what can I say you steal our lives away
Every time procrastination is sorry too
what can I say time you are the thief of me

Time you are a thief
but you will not get the best of me
I want to use every moment for the best
the best of my life
will be filled up with time
I have to live with you, so fine
Every breath I breathe
I want to come from the deepest part of me
So steal away

Make every minute count
make that miser count himself out
Make every minute shout
Every second is a new day
steal away
steal away
go ahead
steal away

Rain

Rain is pounding on the street
my feet are flying at the same beat
I can't see, I can't see five feet in front of me
But I see, But I see the greater destiny

Lord I want to be like this rain
and you to be my atmosphere
I wanna be that close to you
No more meaningless show
I wanna be alive
permeate my skin
Heal me deep inside
Waken me within

I want you to be the part of me
that makes me who I am
I don't care if this song doesnt rhyme
it doesnt matter this time around
Lord this rain is falling hard on my street tonight
Lord hear my cry make me to fallback into you

You Don't Look Happy

you dont look happy
have you fallen asleep
it seems its all by route
knowing which rules to keep

No you don't look happy
you smoldered your fire
your desire to fight
whatever happened
to burning bright
dont settle for this fiction world
that is made of lies
return to your true love
and rest under his sky

You've turned to the trinket
and let go of the truth
you used to hold it so close
but now your losing room
because you gave your heart away
your in a crowd of crying souls
but your just asleep
and they are lost forever more

No you don't look happy
you smoldered your fire
your desire to fight
whatever happened
to burning bright
dont settle for this fiction world
that is made of lies
return to your true love
and rest under his sky

open your eyes
let go of the world
remember his love
rekindle the burn
don't be a parrot
who recites what he thinks is right
be a soldier
who lives to die for the fight

Don't Want to Wake Up Alone

Come on presence like wings
come rain the song that over me sings
Come heal the blue pain from gray hurricane's lonely stings
Fill up my weary heart
I've been broken from the start.

I've traveled far on this road
but I still have many miles to go
And this thought creeps in like cold
into a heart that wants you Lord
I don't ever want to wake up on this journey
alone

Come into my beat up house
sorry I haven't got much you know
but you say to me you prefer honesty over show
Fill up my weary heart
I've been broken from the start

I've traveled far on this road
but I still have many miles to go

And this thought creeps in like cold

into a heart that wants you Lord
I don't ever want to wake up on this journey
alone

Why My Eyes Look Tired

Is there any part of me
Is there anything left
Is there any spark in me
Is there anything remaining after theft

Lately I have been feeling old
like I've already lived a thousand lives
But maybe lately I haven't told
you my love what is on my mind

I am tired of the world
and the world is tired of me
the earth is unkind
and there's nothing left to see
people disappoint your heart
and tear it into broken parts
like this broken song I sing to you
I'm tired you see
Too tired to be
please revive me

Is there any good to see
Is there anything right
Is there any lark to sing
Is there anything light

Lately I have been feeling old
like I've already lived a thousand lives
But maybe lately I haven't told
you my love what is on my mind

I am tired of the world
and the world is tired of me
the earth is unkind
and there's nothing left to see
people disappoint your heart
and tear it into broken parts
like this broken song I sing to you
I'm tired you see
Too tired to be
please revive me

I'm worn out
I feel like an antique
Just put me on a shelf that no one sees
I'm torn down
I feel like a freak
Cause no one understands my wild demands
and my heart feels like lead as it sinks
I'm a discontented broken heart
All I am will fall apart
If you don't come in with strong arms
and carry me away from harm

This is why my eyes look tired...

Pulse

There is a song under the water
there is a song above the sky
there is a song deep inside her
but she can't place a reason why

There is a song under the ceiling
there is a song above the roof
there is a song that calls a feeling
he says that this song is his proof

Its the song of rhythm
the song of passion for our souls
its the pulse of your breathin
its the melody that starts when you make us whole
and we are your creation
breathless with anticipation
sing your song
sing of your love
sing it strong
under and above

There is a song under the night time
there is a song above the day
it is the reason and the rhyme
it keeps the timing of our praise

There is a song under our eyes
there is a song above our heads
Its the wonder of your skies
and the remedy of the dead

Its the song of rhythm
the song of passion for our souls
its the pulse of your breathin
its the melody that starts when you make us whole
and we are your creation
breathless with anticipation
sing your song
sing of your love
sing it strong
under and above

Popsicle

Popsicles on a summer day
little kids keep the heat away
they sit and laugh in the breezy shade
freeze tag is now the game
little muddy hands that God has made
little child don't forget these old ways

popsicles melt away
but you can keep them in your heart
popsicles can't always stay
but you can stay young please start
to stay strong now
little bare feet on the ground
this life will soon melt away
keep yourself back in the popsicle days

You may get older as all young do
You may get wiser on what you never wanted to
but just because the popsicles dissipate
that doesn't mean you have to keep those days away
there's a choice to stay young in your soul
there's a choice to get old yet still have popsicles to hold

Two Chance Alive

As the land line flattens against the horizon my heart ceases to beat
As the thick clouds settle like a dark song song my lungs cease to breath
And Without any ceremony
without anyone to console me
I fade away like a light in the night
White is black and black is white

No one else hopes for me now
I've given up and in but you save me somehow
Breathin through me
breathin to me
I am pale and white
you pull back the sheets
and shoot life through my veins
a cry rises from my placid lungs
what song have you sung
I am revived
two chance alive

You bring color skin
water to my lips
blood is moving within
I scrapped past deaths fingers of ice
Your all consuming and I'm alive
you only have made me to live
forever praise and glory I'll give
to you

This is the second life
two chance, two chance alive
This is the second life
two chance, two chance alive

Butterfly

Butterfly I saw your colors
Butterfly a delicate wonder
Butterfly don't fly away come and sun
yourself please stay
Butterfly please brighten up the day

Butterfly I know your wings are tired
I know that you feel conspired
against
I know one touch and you will break
You're not sure how much more you can take
But butterfly your wings can change the course of the wind
Butterfly though its less painful , don't give up, don't blend in

Butterfly open up your eyes
Butterfly look up at the sky
Butterfly it may be dark, it may be light
Butterfly have peace and hope inside
Butterfly know that love is in sight

Losses

All you want and all you need
are two very different things
Flying back in your face
are the memories that wont erase
A remembering mind can be a burden
you can't get stuck in thought you've gotta keep movin.

Its when you're still when your shot
losing blood you haven't got
to lose
hurt and confused
holding onto the wound
you cant lose your losses
you carry 'em like crosses
but this cross wasn't intended for your bearing
let go of all the stones that you're carrying

You've bottled up inside every thorny word,
every insult that has deeply hurt
you recount your pains like a miser counts gold
your eyes burn red and your heart grows cold

Its when you're still when your shot
losing blood you haven't got
to lose
hurt and confused
holding onto the wound
you cant lose your losses
you carry 'em like crosses
but this cross wasn't intended for your bearing
let go of all the stones that you're carrying

Arrows fly like shards of glass
memories from the painful past
give your sorrow to the king
rest you head as he sings

Only Money Love

Nothing but a sea of green
Pockets splitting at the seam
You're bank book's full
but you're feeling dull
have you gone and sold your soul

They tell us only money love
Only money and its never enough
you can only buy love with money
they say you can't get by with just loving
But everyone is empty and used up
Only money-love
only money, love.

Just sit there and put on your pretty face
you're handsome so you'll bring good pay
Work until you can't sweat a drop more
and realize all the creditors are at your door
Even if you make all the paper you ever wanted
You find your heart raw and so blood red

They tell us only money love
Only money and its never enough
you can only buy love with money
they say you can't get by with just loving
But everyone is empty and used up
Only money-love
only money, love.

Is this all there is
they tell us its so
is this how to live
Savior erase the green from our souls
Make the nations white as snow
this is not all there is to live for
You came to give us true riches and so much more

Surge Of Joy

Striking through the streaking rain
I feel it coming through again
Like a curtain rending in my heart
from the sky light comes and falls

And its here for just a breath
this fire in my soul
my eyes widen with every step
its the feeling that I am whole
I could almost reach out and touch my makers hand
I could almost smell the taste feel Heavenly land
Its running through my head to my fingertips
the wind and cold wont leave me old though they breath an icy kiss
The breath swells in my head and words seem an alloy
running through my soul and my frame is a surge of joy

The bare bones of the world reach out there arms to me
the warm hope has been heard and all this I see
rain drives in my face
I have to keep up this furious pace
the wind holds the breath
and the the breath holds the glow
there is a depth on the moment only I know

And its here for just a breath
this fire in my soul
my eyes widen with every step
its the feeling that I am whole
I could almost reach out and touch my makers hand
I could almost smell the taste feel Heavenly land
Its running through my head to my fingertips
the wind and cold wont leave me old though they breath an icy kiss
The breath swells in my head and words seem an alloy
running through my soul and my frame is a surge of joy

It Was Me

I'm all by myself
Yet again
They left me to sell
For riches, some friends

I tried greed
but he robbed me
I tried love
but she wasnt enough
I tried to leave
my thoughts of grief
but somehow they always taunt me
They come back like shadows to haunt me

Is there no honesty
I know that you promised me
You said you'd never leave my side
But I can't find the truth
and I'm not close to you
I'm finally wondering why
Why did you leave me
to weep in the dust
You let them beat me
Is there no one to trust?
Then I look at the friends that I've made
I set out to find truth
but wound up on on a useless crusade
I don't need any more proof
I'm all used up and I know for sure
I can see
It was me

I tried riches on for size
but they left green stains on my eyes
I tried solitude
but it was empty without you
I tried the crowd
But found the silence too loud
Nothing is any good without you
I know it might be too much to ask
But its proved I cant live without you
Would you please make a place
where honesty floods my face
I know its a lot to ask
Be my heart patch,
please bring me back

Is there no honesty
I know that you promised me
You said you'd never leave my side
But I can't find the truth
and I'm not close to you
I'm finally wondering why
Why did you leave me
to weep in the dust
You let them beat me
Is there no one to trust?
Then I look at the friends that I've made
I set out to find truth
but wound up on on a useless crusade
I don't need any more proof
I'm all used up and I know for sure
I can see
It was me

You died on the tree
all because of us and me
I can see
your beauty
my depravity
Let known this be,
It was me

Cold

Alone
on my own
So cold
Why do I cry
Where will I fall tonight

I guess I walked too far
I guess I missed the star
Coming back from the dead
Your voice in my head
Saying dont let go

Alone
On my own
this place is cold
Why do I try
I always find myself failing at night

I guess I missed the mark
I guess Im living stark
Come crashing through my senses
Cause I can be so senseless
Im gonna try again tonight

But I know I need help
I can't do this myself
I hold on if you hold to me
You made a promise that I wont be alone

So I guess I'll keep trying
Cause I love you
I guess I'll keep crying
Cause I know I fall through
But you'll catch me cause you
Always follow through

Rise Above

I get so caught up in what I see
Its not that I doubt you are there
But I can only see the reflection of me
I feel myself sinking under
(Don't let me go asunder)
I feel myself falling down below

But you whisper strength to my soul
I hear it over the static of the radio

I will rise above
you will be enough
I've never felt such a love
And I know without a doubt
Give me a reason to shout
I will rise above

You are the reason to fight
the reason to try
the reason I can go on tonight


Don't let me go asunder
I feel myself falling down below

But you whisper strength to my soul
I hear it over the static of the radio

I will rise above
you will be enough
I've never felt such a love
And I know without a doubt
Give me a reason to shout
I will rise above

Paint

Just another rain drop
in an ocean of puddles
Just another question
in a sea of muddles
Just another day in my life
Just another moment slice

And your with me through every one
you've seen every meadow and prison
and you love me more than I can fathom
You're happy to sit with me as I imagine
I think of heaven and all its streets
and you show me how to love everyone I meet
Dearest Love you are so good to me
My sweet maker you know every inch of my frame
And the canvas you make beautiful as you paint

Just another tear
in a world so broken down
Just another laugh
In a whirlwind of sound
Just another pause
in a blur of motion
Just another wish
in such crazy commotion

And your with me through every one
you've seen every meadow and prison
and you love me more than I can fathom
You're happy to sit with me as I imagine
I think of heaven and all its streets
and you show me how to love everyone I meet
Dearest Love you are so good to me
My sweet maker you know every inch of my frame
And the canvas you make beautiful as you paint

Bind Me

I look around
I can't place where I stand
I want to be found
I don't know where I am
Oh where are you I call
Why did I have to fall
Why did I think I could go my own way
Wont you please I know I dont deserve it
wont you please I know I could never earn it
I know you've done this a thousand times before
But would you save me?

Then take this wayward heart and bind it to your arms
take my broken heart and tie it to your scars
there is nothing that I fear more than my own heart
I need you to hold me so close dear morning star
Hold me until my fit has left me and I callapse into your arms
and I breath again and I rest, dear Lord I've wandered so far
please bind me to your arms

Bind me to your arms with the strongest cord
Bind me to your arms I give up on my own
Bind me to your arms where you hold your word and sword
Bind me to your arms Im so tired of being alone
Bind me with your love that sets me free
In your arms theres no place I'd rather be
So why do I forget and leave your arms
for all of the worlds trinkets and charms
Bind me to your arms Father I beg you
Bind me to your arms

Summer Smile

The earth is weather worn
my soul is so war torn
my mind feels like a ransacked town
with every building burned black to the ground

I feel like a salesman at dinner
not a single call a winner
I haven't had a smile since
the whole world went and made me wince
and that was quite awhile ago
so I guess Im here to let you know

I need your rest in my soul
cause I feel so restless everywhere I go
I've tried to fit the pieces but its outta my control
I've tried to fill the creases but this wall is gonna blow
Please bring your summer smile on my winter street then let it go

I think I need a new song
been crooning discontentment too long
ice streaks freeze upon my face
I've got a broken go-cart in this race
Its time I let loose and fall down
Its time you come in an erase my furrowed brow

I need your rest in my soul
cause I feel so restless everywhere I go
I've tried to fit the pieces but its outta my control
I've tried to fill the creases but this wall is gonna blow
Please bring your summer smile on my winter street then let it go

Come Save me Now

Lord make this restless wanderer to rest
upon the rock of enduring faithfulness
cause I've been through a storm
and I'm feeling so alone
and I've tried to fight it out
but my hearts filled with dark doubt
its blacking out
come save me know

Lord make this running runner to stop
from trying to run from the drop
cause its ok to fall
because your bigger than them all
and I know that from experience
with a heart so numb and delirous
I need to fall straight in your hand I'm coming down
its blacking out
come save me now

Lord make this sobbing pulse to cease
and simply fill my blood with your peace
cause my eyes have turned pale
and all my battles fail
but your stronger with just your hands
than I could ever muster in my lands
I'll sing it out
Its blacking out
but I'm burning out
I know you'll save me now

My Life And Death Anthem

This song is floating over the keyboard of my heart
the notes are playing and begin fading as quickly as they start
I have to write this down before too long
I have to try to save this breath before its used and gone

I remember this song,
I mark it well,
its all the things I can't buy or sell.
I remember this song,
like the holiday,
of all the things that human words cant say
Its the grateful song for the will to make us survive
Its all the words that can't describe
just how it feels to die and be alive.

I feel your heartbeat under the earth
I know your gaze penetrating hurt
Floating on one moment when I gaze down at my hands
and for one moment Im gone and I marvel at your plans
Its here so brief I can only breath and its to my grief yet I sigh relief

In the Eye

In the middle of a hurricane
Walking the streets in the pouring rain
Spinning out starspeed Im going insane
Feel pounding pain
in my heart
but then you stop and start

In the eye of the storm you stop the whole world
In the rage, ripped and torn you make my stand sure
what is this peace I find?
Its not ever in the place of my mind
In the middle of my hurricane
in exposure to driving rain
you hear my cry unheard
in the eye of the storm you stop the whole world.

You come running to me
ready for battle with the cavalry
You wont give up till you've won me back
you wont give me over to inside black
You see the storm
and you cease its form
you find the eye
and rise me up high
you stop me in the midst of the chaos
I hold my breath as you take us
away

Space

Space

Floating

In our space of fragility

We can not see past the blue den

The bright star burns our eyes

The change sizzles in our pockets

And makes us slaves

Diamond chains float away in gravity's absence

This is freedom

Our call for peace

Our chance

Inscribed

Concentric

chords

All Away

Its coming up
its going down
life is not enough
to stop the sound
Its coming through
its getting clear
and my whole life
is chasing tears
nothing truly new
until you call my name
and I answer you
you sing the sky's refrain

All Away
come up to me
this is where you belong
I'll sing sweetly
I'll mend the glass
that holds you back
that cuts your feet
as you crawl to me
I'm carrying you away
All Away

I've cried too long
on the battlefield beneath me
I found I'm not strong
like I wanted to be
But you call me up
just when I give up
and thats enough to save this aching heart
Please dont let me go just keep me in your arms

When it comes down
dont break it
when it falls down
dont hate it
Cause its not enough to ignore the pain
and say your strong when you feel the strain
you have to give up and die to yourself
if you ever want to rise up and be well

lowercase i

the storm is coming
will i be strong enough
the storm is running
its gonna cut through all this stuff
the storm is pounding down the halls
is it the end or is this a bluff
the storm is raging through the walls
its crashing through the celing
and i can hear my soul screaming

then i hear the echo
reverberating the canyon of my heart
telling me to let go
and breath in the disaster let it smart
cause its the start of something new
its gonna run the old ways through
and im outta control
its not in my hands
i've learned this before
but now i understand
im just the lowercase i
and your the capital G
your the hands that hold the sky
and im just the raindrop on a leaf

Glass Heart

I used to be so idealistic
but now my heart is hard and twisted
I feel like I went and missed it
whatever happened to my soul
I used to be open and untainted
but my heart became refrigerated
I wound up cynical and jaded
whatever made this empty hole

I can't hold my own heart together
whatever made me think I could change the world
Father hold my broken glass heart forever
Whatever made me want to change the world
I can only make the best of whats mine
Whatever made me think I could change the world
I can only make the best of my own life

And this life that I'm living can't be mine
Not if I want to live
So I'm giving up this time
Take the harshness of my heart
and melt it down to run like rain
let the heavy lead run soft down my face
like a tear stain
Let this world not be mine
I'm a torn up mess from my bitter crime
Say "your mine" say Im fine
Say "your mine" say Im fine